Rose Blumen ~ Exogignesthai 123. Decision, 9

(Rose)

For a while, I thought I was dead. Because... Because I’m seeing her again. She’s been dead for so long, as was I...

Why would she still wait for , looking as young as when I last saw her? Past aged with her, and surely is at her side...

You’re not her... It’s an illusion. You’re lying to , daiûa...

The picture of her is changing. It doesn’t look like her anymore. It looks like the wooden sculpture and shape I saw through the mist before.

You’re showing yourself. What took you so long? I’ve felt really weird all this ti.

I can’t feel my body anymore. It feels really strange. Where am I?

I feel rather nice but I can’t tell where am I nor whether what I see is dream or not.

I’ve thought I was dead...

You’re here at last... Tell . Tell who you are. Tell what I am.

What have you done with ?

Since I ca to this world... I felt as if I was experiencing the sa thing as my sister did...

A daiûa bringing into its strange world...

You tried to trick like you daiûas always do in the tales.

And actually you succeeded more than once... You made kill man, child and animals alike. You made lose my mind against and then with Ann. You played all this ti. You toyed with my unholy new life...

You had your share of fun watching us die and murder each other... Didn’t you?

So tell , why?

Why have you done this to ?

Was it only to play with living toys?

Or maybe, because sohow, you feel sothing for ...

I felt I was experiencing sothing similar to what she went through... And so I wonder if maybe my daiûa isn’t a little like hers was...

Sothing sad, and craving for warmth. A being so desperate to reach us, it’s willing to cast away its own eternity, and to sacrifice everyone else along its path.

A dangerous being as it feels nothing toward anything in the world but themselves. And maybe the one being they t, and liked to play with, sohow locked away in another world...

You didn’t want to kill ... You had the chance to, when we finally t.

And instead you said sothing I couldn’t understand.

Please, tell ...

What was it you wish to see co true?

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I’m floating sowhere. I can guess an uneven glow and a warmth surrounding .

Are you taking care of , or in the process of digesting ?

I think I can see you... Why can’t I move and reach you?

I’m trying to move, but it doesn’t seem to work. If you’re not going to eat daiûa, then help .

You wanted to see , to talk with , right? Then save .

I still want to live.

Even though I still miss her. Even though I may not be human anymore, I want to live so more.

If what I’ve co to believe is true, you can surely help ... You have strength, you have power beyond what I could ever imagine.

I know I’m dying... It’s almost obvious now. I wish I had more to tell.

I’m all alone now.

Since you brought to this world, I’ve been alone and afraid. I’ve beco sothing I never wanted to beco to make it through. I’m not free. And I’m certainly not happy.

I was lost in a cruel world, unable to live as the kind being I wanted to be. Surviving, trying to reach sothing dear to , but in vain.

You think that was sohow true for the three of us?

Behind the monsters we sohow beca, we longed for sothing so much softer...

In a way, I can see how we were the sa...

I feel a little hopeless in this world that refuses to judge us.

I wanted to atone... But it’s as if nothing cared about it. Actually, it’s true. This world where society is gone does not care at all about what I’ve done or what I’ve beco.

It’s not freedom, it’s hopelessness...Or vain.

On the other hand, it did free Ann, and probably daiûas like you. Have you won?

But it doesn’t feel like a victory for you I guess. Had you fun in cruelty, where does it end? I can’t believe an intelligent being such as you would live only for that.

I don’t believe in demons...

And yet I’ve co to believe sohow in you.

It’s been almost our family solemn duty to understand beings like you.

We’ve always been curious about you. We’ve always been interested in you. Almost seduced, though we never t...

My father lived his life dreaming he could one day speak to or see a daiûa.

My sister too... In a different way.

And in the end it turned well for her, despite the hard tis we had.

It ended well for her. How worried I was about it! She lived happy.

Please... Could it also end well for ?

You wanted to migrate to a warr place, I can guess.

So did I... So did she. And so did Ann.

I can’t tell anymore what parts of ourselves we all have, that are of humanity, monstrosity, and daiûa, deep down. Are we all daiûas?

Am I human?

Am I still human? Anymore?

Daiûa, please help ....

I may begin to understand what you felt all this ti.

I’ve always dreamt of eting you!

I wanted to thank the one she t. I still want to et you...

We can make sothing better co out from both of us. I know it is real.

I know it can be. Because, she lived. We lived...

So I’m sure you and I can still live.

We can find happiness in this colder world.

That’s what I want now... I want to know you. I’ve always been curious, grateful or scared of daiûas. But since I realised that I was here because of you, I wanted to et you, just you.

You still make all these emotions rise, but this ti it’s just you.

I wonder what you can do. Can you make this long dream end?

I want to see the sunlight again. Please, if I’m not wrong about you, please save .

If you have feelings for , please save ...

I don’t want to die now... I want to live. And I want you to live too. Don’t disappear on just yet.

I want to see this new world with you...

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