"Okay, here goes...nice and calm, you’ve got this. ," I chanted as I let out a slow exhale, grimacing as I felt the surge of aggression erupting inside , gritting my teeth as I resisted it.
I-I can do this, just...just relax...just FUCKING RELAX!!!
One p-plus one is two...! Two plus two is f-four, four plus four is eight...! E-Eight plus eight is...is...fuck, I can’t focus!
C-Calm down...!
T-Today’s...today’s the...the 14th of...fucking...March! It’s been...it’s been four days...since I began this train-...God fucking damn it, I’m pissing myself off!
O-Okay, relax, it’s fine...it’s fine...I SAID IT’S FINE!!!
I was...by myself in...the training space...today. Trying to...keep my cool...while using Enr-...grr, fuck this, you know what I’m trying to do, I don’t gotta fucking explain this shit!
Wait, wh-who...who the fuck am I even talking to?!
M-Maybe if I try thinking...of sothing funny...like...funny words or so shit like that?!
"Boobs...balls...boobies...butthole...bleh...blah...buh-...why the fuck can I only think of B words?!"
Damn it! Ai! How long has it been?!
Fuck!
"Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! DAMN IT!!! DAMN IT!!! DAMN IT!!!" I roared as I repeatedly stomped on the floor, the room rumbling slightly with each impact.
Don’t tell what to-...!
DON’T INTERRUPT EITHER!!! I-...wait.
Did you just use a contraction? That’s new.
DON’T PATRONIZE , DAMN IT!!!
Wait! Keep talking, it’s helping pass the ti! How long has it been now?!
Damn it!
Well?! What are you waiting for?! Keep talking!
Ai...!
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"It’s finally over!" I gasped, flopping onto the floor with a sigh of relief.
Yeah, sorry. Still, though, I’m definitely making progress. Very slow, gradual progress, but progress nonetheless.
This marks my fifth ti training with using Enrage. I used it by myself over the two days after day one, and then yesterday, I sparred against Rex again, though he stayed on the run the whole ti.
And today, I’m working at it by myself again. It’s a bit easier when there’s no one else in the room.
On day two, I asked Charlotte to leave in the room alone since Rex wasn’t here, just to be safe, and I managed to keep my aggression sowhat contained.
I won’t be training with Enrage tomorrow though, I’ll be heading out on a raid, with the sa group as my last raid.
It’ll be another Mid Level raid, the Hunters Union doesn’t have any High Level raids available at the mont.
The Union only issues High Level raids when there are too many for the Guilds to handle, which is pretty rare.
In a year, the Union gets five, maybe six, High Level raids at most, while the Guilds tend to tackle that many, or even more, in a single month.
I don’t plan on using Enrage in a raid anyti soon, it’s probably going to take several months of training before I have a decent enough handle over it to use it in battle.
The harder I focus on staying calm, the more difficult it is to move and fight, I’ve got a long climb to reach a level where I can balance that.
Yeah, sorry...and it’s definitely not going to get too much better anyti soon. Still, slow progress is still progress, so nothing to do but keep grinding away at it.
Over these last five days, I’ve co to realize that it’ll be impossible to stay completely calm in that state.
The aggression and rage that wells up and surges is just way too intense, there’s no way I’ll ever be able to completely put a lid on it.
That said, I’m already able to slightly resist the aggressive and violent impulses I feel while in that state...well, sort of, my resistance slips every now and then, and those volatile emotions erupt and surge out of control.
But I am definitely starting to get a handle on it, bit by bit each ti I use Enrage.
It’s going to take a trendous amount of ti and effort to actually get the hang of it though, it’s not sothing I’m going to be able to pull off overnight.
On another note, Ai...earlier, you definitely used contractions, you’ve never done that before. At least, not that I’ve ever noticed.
Yeah, too. And I was so surprised when I noticed that I legit cald down for a sec. Not that that lasted long.
Still, this is a pretty significant change. At this rate, you’ll be using slang before long.
I let out a bewildered snort of laughter, before wincing as my damaged muscles throbbed agonizingly. Ow...
S-Sorry for laughing, I just never expected to hear you ever say those kind of phrases. Also, the examples you gave are super outdated.
Huh...actually, now that I think about it, a lot more phrases from my previous era should be outdated by now, it’s weird that there aren’t any new phrases or slang in this era.
The way people in this era talk is very similar to how people spoke in my old era, there are a few trends and slang that didn’t exist back then, but for the most part, it’s not all that different.
Yeah, people suck.
I guess that makes sense.
Wait, what?
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