Claire prepared the children’s dinner, and following Yin Shixiu’s request, she cooked a pot of millet porridge.
Yin Shixiu ladled the millet porridge, prepared a few side dishes, and quietly carried the tray into the room.
Shuangshuang and Huang Huang knew their mother was ill. Seeing Yin Shixiu enter the room, the siblings followed, but both tip-toed, worried about their mother yet afraid to disturb her rest.
Yin Shixiu softly said to Shuangshuang and Huang Huang,
"Go out and eat dinner. Eat well and mom will recover faster."
Shuangshuang and Huang Huang couldn’t grasp the logic, but whatever Dad said was absolutely right!
So the siblings tip-toed out again, climbed onto their chairs, and obediently waited for dinner.
In the master bedroom, Yin Shixiu placed the tray on the bedside table and sat by the bed,
"ng ng, have sothing to eat."
Su Xiaong lay on her side. Her tears had dried, but her eyes, having cried, felt sore and painful, almost unable to open.
She didn’t move.
Yin Shixiu held her icy hand,
"I’ve thought about that day all day yesterday. Thinking back and forth, it seems... the fault was mine."
"..."
Su Xiaong turned her back to him.
Her heart was calm, yet this calmness made her feel frightened and sad.
"I had no right to be angry with you. It was just you were hanging by a thread, and it scared ."
"I know in your eyes I seem strong, and to outsiders, I seem strong. I appear indomitable, with no weaknesses..."
"But ng ng, it’s one thing for others to think that, you shouldn’t."
"..."
"Since eting you, liking you, loving you, marrying you, I am no longer indomitable. I am also fragile, I also have tis when I am very scared..."
"When you stood at the edge of the rooftop, I was wondering what I would do if you fell..."
"All sorts of scenarios flashed through my mind, but there was only one thought left, I would follow."
Su Xiaong’s once-calm heart tightened again.
At this point, why say these things?
Is it guilt from having done sothing wrong to her... could it be?
Otherwise... huh, with your cold arrogance as President Yin, how would you willingly admit fault?
Su Xiaong’s heart was cold. She knew if he hadn’t done sothing wrong, he wouldn’t bow his head. It was always she who first bowed...
She was certain of it.
Yet despite this, she was shaken by his words.
The guilt, the feeling of remorse towards her, didn’t it prove he still cared for her, still loved her...
At this mont, Su Xiaong’s disgust for herself reached its peak.
Even in such a state, she was still making excuses for him, she still wanted to accept his apology as if nothing happened...
She thought if she pretended nothing had happened, could life continue as usual.
As long as she didn’t expose it, as long as she turned a blind eye, could she at least not lose him?
Her body curled into a ball.
A voice in her head said to her,
Su Xiaong, don’t you know, such a you, even you would look down on, even you would find yourself cheap...
Then, another voice spoke to her,
Look at this man sitting by the bed, he’s holding your hand, he still cares for you, he still loves you, what does it matter if you’re humble or cheap, at least you still have the person you love.
The two voices battled in her mind.
Fighting endlessly, as if it would never end.
"I don’t want you to pretend to be strong, especially at such a dangerous juncture, what does soone else’s life or fate matter?"
"I just want you to know, without you, this family would fall apart, do you understand?"
"Boohoo..."
Su Xiaong couldn’t help but cry out.
If that’s the case, why go to a hotel with soone else, why deceive her?
Yin Shixiu knew she felt wronged and that she was unwell, he felt worse, but he never expected her to cry.
His heart clenched, guilt growing stronger.
Leaning over, he hugged her,
"I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have been harsh on you, shouldn’t have been so cold, did I scare you?"
"Boohoo..."
Su Xiaong curled up even tighter.
"Alright, have so food, okay? Hmm?"
"Don’t want to eat, I just want to sleep for a bit..."
She didn’t want him so close, her mind was too chaotic, she wanted to be alone, just wanted to be alone...
With a soft sigh, Yin Shixiu gently patted her back, then he climbed onto the bed, leaning against the headboard, and pulled Su Xiaong entirely into his arms,
"Then sleep like this."
"..."
"Last night, sleeping in the kids’ room left my back aching... can’t sleep without holding you."
Su Xiaong wanted to know who that woman was, what kind of woman could make him feel guilty towards her, yet still take the other to a hotel...
Head aching, it felt like it would burst.
Ti passed unknown, and Xiaong fell asleep again. Upon waking, she heard the doctor and Yin Shixiu discussing her condition.
A cold from the chill.
Opening her eyes, to her right was a mobile IV pole.
She was on an IV drip.
Yin Shixiu and the family doctor thanked each other, and he had Claire see the doctor out.
Turning back, he t Su Xiaong’s swollen eyes as she opened them, and he asked,
"Did we wake you?"
"... What ti is it?"
Yin Shixiu sat by the bed, glancing at his watch,
"Past two. The kids are sound asleep. Feeling better?"
Su Xiaong’s eyes weren’t blind, she could see Yin Shixiu’s exhaustion...
His sharp gaze, the whites of his eyes bloodshot.
She turned her gaze away, nodding slightly.
Yin Shixiu lowered his head, kissed her forehead, "I’ll heat up so porridge, you must be hungry."
His attentiveness, his care, the concern he showed, in Su Xiaong’s eyes, all stemd from his guilt towards her.
After sleeping once, Su Xiaong’s mind was a little clearer.
When Yin Shixiu brought the porridge in, Su Xiaong was already sitting by the bed, quietly staring blankly at a fixed point on the bed...
Seeing him co in, she then lifted her eyes, devoid of any expression.
This made Yin Shixiu uncomfortable.
Sitting by the bed, he held the porridge, "Want to feed you?"
"Okay."
She nodded, and he scooped so porridge, cooled it, and brought it to her lips, Su Xiaong opened her mouth and swallowed, her big eyes looking at him...
"What’s wrong?"
"Are you feeling guilty?"
Yin Shixiu raised an eyebrow, "Why do you say that?"
"It just seems like with how attentive you are to , you must have done sothing wrong to ."
Su Xiaong spoke coldly, glanced at him, and swallowed another mouthful of porridge.
"If I had done sothing wrong to you, I would have hung myself long ago."
Once, those sweet nothings from Yin Shixiu would fill her with sweetness, but now, it was a completely different taste.
She didn’t expose him.
Perhaps it was a form of revenge, she just wanted him to feel guilty, self-reproach, and insecure!
Yin Shixiu could sense Su Xiaong’s odd behavior.
He reached out and ruffled her hair, seriously saying, "I didn’t co back last night, were you afraid I’d go out and fool around because I was angry with you?"
"Cherry."
Su Xiaong suddenly said this na, causing Yin Shixiu to be montarily stunned.
Could it be...
"Cherry got divorced, do you rember I told you?"
Su Xiaong asked him.
"You did."
"She divorced her ex-husband because he cheated..."
"Oh? Is that so."
Yin Shixiu shrugged, seemingly not too concerned.
"Shixiu, if in a marriage, one side cheats, what attitude should the other side take?"
Su Xiaong looked at him.
Yin Shixiu blew on the porridge, "Oh? Is that so."
"How sure are you?"
"Quite, because you love more than anything."
Su Xiaong wondered if that was why he felt so complacent.
"How about you? Would you cheat?"
"I already said, if I did you wrong, may I be struck by lightning and die a terrible death." Yin Shixiu’s expression turned slightly solemn.
"..."
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