Surviving A Novel I Don't Remember: A Tutor's Guide To Staying Alive Chapter 62: Lucius had waited at the door

Julian watched the golden hair of the siblings disappear behind the hedge, leaving him in a silence that felt heavier than the one he had arrived with.

"That’s a nice joke, Your Highness."

The words felt like a physical weight in his stomach. He hadn’t ant to be cruel; he was just trying to survive. Being the tutor of the Prince and Princess was no different from putting a collar around his neck and handing the leash to the Emperor.

It would ruin him.

But to a child who had finally found a ’secret’ ally, those words must have felt like a stab to the heart.

"I think it’s ti to go back," he whispered to himself, his voice sounding a bit raspy. "I have to get back before the Emperor decides my ’absence’ is suspicious enough to lead to an interrogation cell."

The re thought of it made him shudder.

When returning, he didn’t run this ti. Running made him look like a thief.

Instead, he forced himself to walk with the asured, calm pace he had just taught the children—chin level, back straight, a ’mirror’ to any guard who dared to look his way. His politeness would be his charm.

By the ti he reached the Jade Wing, his legs felt like jelly once again, and his shirt was damp with cold sweat.

All he wanted was to slide behind his door, turn the lock, and take off this suffocating coat. Then, he could start concocting the potion as well.

Maybe tonight, he might finally get a good night’s sleep.

But as he turned the final corner toward his room, he stopped short.

Lucius was sitting on the floor right outside the door, his small back against the polished wood. He looked like a little bird waiting for the sun to rise. He was holding a small picture book in his lap, his expression quiet, soft, and filled with unwavering patience.

Julian felt a sharp pang of guilt as he looked down at the small boy. Lucius looked like he had been guarding the door.

Lucius noticed his shadow and lifted his head, only to find the tutor he thought had been resting in his room.

He looked at the closed door with a little panic, then back at Julian’s grass-stained clothes, and then the realization hit him. He had been sitting there, heart full of expectation, silently waiting for his teacher to feel better and co outside, while Julian was out in the fields.

A deep, frantic crimson flooded Lucius’s face, reaching even the tips of his tanned ears. He looked down at his boots, his small chest heaving with a mix of mortification and the sheer, overwhelming relief of seeing Julian alive and well. He looked like he would prefer the floor to open up and swallow him whole before his teacher knew of his blunder.

But it was already too late. Julian had already guessed it.

"Lucius," Julian whispered, his voice light with a protective warmth. He stepped forward and knelt, bringing himself level with the boy. "I’m so sorry to have kept you waiting like this. I... I didn’t an to."

Lucius didn’t look up. Instead, he reached out with a trembling hand and gripped Julian’s sleeve so hard his knuckles turned pale. It wasn’t a casual touch; it was the grip of soone who had been terrified they’d been left behind in this golden cage of a palace.

He finally looked up and smiled, though there was no hiding the tears in his eyes. The boy was just glad his tutor was still the sa, and nothing had happened, as he had feared.

Julian’s heart twisted, feeling a pang of guilt. He could feel the boy’s silent distress vibrating through his fingers and through the fabric of his coat. Especially so when he took a look at his status.

>[Target: Young Lord Lucius — Affection Level: 57% Current Status: [Intense Embarrassnt / Separation Anxiety]

Note: He would wait at this door until the sun died if he thought you were inside.

Why wouldn’t he feel guilty?

"Co," Julian said softly, placing a hand on the boy’s head to pat him gently. "You waited long for , so it’s only right to invite you inside my room, right?"

Lucius eyes bead with expectations. He wasnt looking forward to seeing the grandness of the room, but rather had the simple thought of, ’I’m going inside the teacher’s room. What does it look like?’

He found himself curious, even though he knew this was just a temporary residence while they were at the Palace, and none of it was actually done to Julian’s actual taste.

He reached for the door handle and then opened it. Back to the room where he had committed such an unholy act with the child’s father.

He was embarrassed, but did not let it show. What you don’t know won’t kill you, right? He decided to stick to that notion if he wanted to keep his sanity.

The heavy oak door creaked open, and Julian stepped into the room that still felt thick with the traces of the previous night. The scent of the Duke’s presence seed to cling to the very curtains... it was probably Julian’s own thoughts playing tricks on him.

But just because he knew it was all in his head, did not an he wouldn’t react to the mory.

Julian’s skin prickled. Every ti he looked at the silk sheets of the bed, he saw the shadow of a heavy body that wasn’t his own. He felt like a criminal shalessly standing in the middle of his own cri scene, but he kept his expression as smooth and caring as usual.

He couldn’t afford to let a single crack show—not with Lucius watching him with such wide, devoted eyes.

Lucius followed him in tentatively, his small hand still clutching Julian’s sleeve as if afraid that if he let go, Julian might suddenly run away again. The boy’s face was still a dusty rose color, but it was actually a nice hue that complented his tanned features.

"Sit, Lucius," Julian said, his voice regaining that gentleness that always seed to settle the boy’s nerves. He gestured toward the small velvet armchair near the window, far away from the bed that held too many ’unholy’ mories. "I’ll brew us so tea. It seems we both need a mont to catch our breath." And I should probably check if I can change the sheets. He thought.