Surviving the Apocalypse With My Yandere Ex-Girlfriend Chapter 181: Think about it

They had her seated facing the glass wall, wrists locked behind the chair with industrial restraints that dug into skin deep enough to leave pale grooves whenever she shifted.

Lila didn’t sit still.

Not because she was trying to escape anymore. Because she couldn’t decide what to do with the fact that she was being made to wait.

A soldier stepped into her peripheral vision and adjusted the angle of the chair without asking. The tal legs scraped loudly against concrete.

"Stay facing forward," he said.

Lila laughed once under her breath, dry and cracked. "Or what?"

The soldier didn’t answer imdiately. He just looked at her like she was a problem that had already been solved and was now only waiting to be filed away properly.

Behind the glass wall in front of her, a bright room waited. Clean. Sterile. Overlit in a way that made it feel less like a room and more like a blank page.

A chair sat in the center.

Empty.

Cables coiled neatly along the floor like veins waiting for a body.

Lila tilted her head slightly, trying to see more of the room’s edges. A guard stepped in and pushed her head back to center with two fingers against her temple. Not rough enough to break anything. Just enough to remind her it could happen whenever they felt like it.

"You’re going to watch," the soldier said.

"I already am," she replied.

A pause.

Then the soldier added, almost casually, "Not that part. The part where he decides what he is."

That sentence didn’t land imdiately. It just hung there, suspended, like it was waiting for aning to catch up to it.

Lila’s jaw tightened anyway.

Because she understood enough.

Another guard passed behind her and stopped near the glass. On the other side of it, a technician checked a monitor, then nodded once to soone out of fra.

"Rolling in thirty seconds," soone said.

The words echoed faintly through the wall.

Lila leaned forward as far as the restraints allowed, the chair creaking under the strain. "Where is he?"

No answer ca.

Instead, the lights in the observation room brightened slightly, like a stage being prepared.

A cara arm adjusted itself overhead.

Lila’s breathing slowed in a way she didn’t like. Not calm. Controlled. Forced into shape by sothing outside her.

She tested the restraints again, harder this ti. The tal held without complaint.

Behind her, a second set of footsteps stopped.

A different soldier spoke quietly, not to her. "She’s still the anchor point."

"Yeah," the first one replied. "That’s why she gets to watch."

Lila stopped moving.

Not because she wanted to.

Because she heard that last part properly.

Anchor point.

She let out a slow breath through her nose, eyes locked on the empty chair behind the glass.

"Yeah," she muttered, almost to herself. "Sure. Let watch."

The door to the observation room opened.

And Adrian was brought in.

—

A bright light stung my eyes when I opened them. Nothing else had registered—

And I was already trying to move in the chair I was restrained in.

"...shh. Shh. There, there." a voice cooed from behind . Jennifer.

Her tone didn’t match the restraint around my wrists or the clinical glare of the room. It belonged sowhere softer. Sowhere fake.

I tried to twist anyway. The straps bit deeper.

Jennifer’s hands found my hair. Slow, deliberate strokes, like she was calming an animal she already knew would obey eventually.

"I wouldn’t go near him if I were you, Jen," one of the soldiers said.

A pause. Then Jennifer looked at him.

He stopped speaking mid-breath.

That was all it took.

But it didn’t stop .

Not even her touch could settle what was already crawling under my skin.

Lila.

The thought hit like sothing physical.

What the fuck did they do to Lila?

My body reacted before I could think. The chair scraped slightly as I pulled against it, muscles tightening until it hurt just to stay still.

"LET GO!!"

The words ca out wrong. Too raw. Too loud for a room like this.

Jennifer leaned closer behind , her voice dropping.

"Adrian, please."

A softness that didn’t belong in restraint protocols.

"Don’t make have to put you to sleep again."

That stopped sothing in . Not compliance—sothing closer to panic. The kind that doesn’t negotiate.

My throat tightened. My vision blurred before I even realized I was crying.

Jennifer exhaled, like I was exhausting her.

Then she moved in front of .

She didn’t rush. She never rushed. That was part of it—control disguised as patience.

Her thumb brushed under my eye, collecting what had already spilled over.

"You know," she said, "I really don’t like hurting you, Adrian."

It almost sounded like a confession.

I stared at her through the wet blur in my vision, trying to find sothing in her expression that didn’t fit. There was nothing. That was the problem.

She believed it.

"You’re special to ."

That sentence should have ant sothing safe.

It didn’t.

For a mont, she just held my face there, like she was making sure I couldn’t look anywhere else.

Then she stood.

"Then why are you doing this?!" The words broke out of before I could stop them.

She sighed again, not at the question itself, but at the necessity of answering it.

"I know Vivian gave you the rundown of how your mind works," she said, almost conversational, "even if it was a long ti ago."

My stomach tightened at the na.

"Do you rember?"

A beat passed.

Then I turned my head.

To the left.

There was glass there. Darkened slightly. Not fully transparent, but enough that it was not aningless either. Sothing existed behind it. Sothing I was not supposed to focus on.

"Who’s behind there?"

Her hand snapped back to my jaw, turning my head to her again with quiet precision.

"Nobody, sweetie."

Sweetie.

The word made my stomach tighten for reasons I could not articulate fast enough to stop the reaction.

My eyes flicked back despite her hand holding steady.

The glass remained unchanged, but my brain refused to accept that as proof of nothing.

Jennifer leaned in slightly.

"Look at ."

I did.

Her expression softened again, but this ti it carried sothing instructional, like she was guiding a patient through a breakdown rather than speaking to a person having one.

"I know you’re scared."

She said it like she had already categorized every response I was capable of having.

"I know you think you need to fear what’s happening to you. But you don’t."

Her fingers traced lightly along my cheek as she spoke, grounding physically while dismantling psychologically.

"You have sothing rare. Sothing most people never get the chance to understand about themselves."

Her eyes flicked briefly toward the glass again.

"You have potential."

The word hung in the air too long.

"Not just potential," she continued. "Sothing far beyond what you’ve been allowed to beco."

My breathing slowed slightly without permission. Not calm. Just overwheld into stillness.

Her hand slid down my arm, slower now, as if mapping sothing she already understood better than I did.

A beat.

"And I know exactly what’s holding you back."

Her voice sharpened slightly on the last word.

"People," she said simply. "Attachnts. The idea that you owe loyalty to things that only keep you small."

Her fingers tightened just slightly on my wrist.

"They’re not protecting you. They’re limiting you."

The room felt colder after that sentence, even though nothing had changed.

A pause stretched between us.

Then she softened again.

"I know it’s hard to trust ." She said quietly. "Especially after everything that’s happened."

There it was again—that careful gentleness, like everything she said had been rehearsed for comfort.

"...but I don’t think it’s easier to trust what you already believe either."

Her hand moved into her pocket.

The object ca out without ceremony. A small device. Clean. Purpose-built. My instincts reacted before my understanding did.

Sothing about it was wrong in a way I could not imdiately define.

She lifted it slightly.

"I want to show you sothing," she said.

"—...?"

Then she pressed it.

The world did not fade.

It changed.

My left eye went dark.

Not closed. Not damaged in a way I could imdiately comprehend. It simply stopped being part of the world. Like it had been switched off inside my skull.

A sharp burning sensation followed, deep and invasive, and then my perception fractured.

The room around flickered.

White walls beca unstable. The light warped, bending like it was being pulled through sothing beneath it. My right eye tried to compensate, but the imbalance made everything feel wrong.

And then I saw it.

Not the room.

A different place.

A screen.

A voice.

A mont I had buried without aning to.

"I’ve thought about it..."

Lila’s voice.

My body reacted instantly. I tried to move, but the restraints held in place while my mind was forced to watch sothing I had no consent to revisit.

"Thought about what?" a voice asked her.

The pain in my left eye spiked.

"Breaking his limbs while he sleeps..."

"TURN IT OFF!!"

The scream wasn’t just panic. It was resistance. Pure rejection of what my brain was being forced to relive.

The pressure vanished instantly.

Sight returned in a violent snap.

I was breathing too fast. My chest wouldn’t settle. Warmth ran down my face—blood, I realized, from sowhere I hadn’t felt break until now.

...what the fuck was that?

Jennifer’s voice carried sothing almost pleased.

"Nifty, right?"

She stepped closer again, unbothered by the aftermath.

"After the lattice was implanted, I didn’t even need proximity anymore. It gave access to everything already inside you."

Her eyes studied mine like I was a screen she was scrolling through.

"So mories are fragnted. But that one?" A faint smile. "That one’s intact."

She tilted her head.

"That’s who you want to build a life around?"

Her hand returned to my face again, almost tender.

"There is no version of that story that ends well for you, Adrian."

I shook my head before she finished, like the motion alone could erase what she was planting.

"No. No, no, no—"

It wasn’t a debate anymore. It was defense.

"You’re wrong!"

Her expression didn’t change.

That was the worst part.

Because she wasn’t reacting to .

She was observing .

"You’re wrong, you’re wrong, you’re wrong—"

The repetition wasn’t argunt anymore. It was drowning noise. My own voice trying to outshout sothing else forming underneath it.

A doubt that didn’t belong to .

Sothing colder slipped in between the words.

Maybe—

"YOU’RE FUCKING WRONG!!"

Silence followed like a cut.

Jennifer straightened slowly.

Disappointnt. Clean and clinical.

Not anger.

Worse.

She turned away as if the conversation had already concluded itself.

"Try again later," she said to soone behind her.

Paper rustled. A pen stopped moving.

The room started to empty.

Footsteps. Doors. Distance returning.

And then only her voice remained at the edge of the exit.

"And Adrian."

I didn’t look up.

"Think about what I said."

A pause.

"I know you already know there’s truth in it."

The door closed.

And what was left behind wasn’t silence.

It was trying not to believe her.

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