She didn’t want to share her true thoughts with Qi Longbing; she felt she could only, once again, support his decision to divorce. Well, that was easy enough to say, but who knew when he would actually be able to get a divorce? When could he provide her and Candy with a complete family? Such thoughts made her feel utterly powerless. It was during this period of vulnerability, when she desperately needed a sense of security, that Zi Yunsui had co into her life. Moreover, Zi Yunsui had even said she wanted to register their marriage, a suggestion that once again stirred the deepest, most genuine feelings within Hua Xiaomo’s heart.
She knew marriage wasn’t a trivial matter. And even if Zi Yunsui’s suggestion had been impulsive, actually marrying her would only complicate Hua Xiaomo’s feelings further. Indeed, Qi Longbing, Zi Yunsui, Candy, and herself... what would beco of their futures? She didn’t know, and the thought caused her great distress. She felt it would be best if these feelings weren’t so complicated. She wished they could all find happiness in simplicity—a happiness that belonged to everyone involved. She also wished everyone could experience this joy, free from such complex matters and the feeling of helplessness.
Hua Xiaomo looked at Zi Yunsui, her emotions incredibly tangled. She truly didn’t want this relationship to beco so painfully complicated. Yes, her feelings for Zi Yunsui had always been simple. But now, they had beco so complex, and she didn’t understand why. She didn’t want things to beco even more complicated. In her view, a simpler relationship with Zi Yunsui was preferable.
After all, they were just business partners; Zi Yunsui was rely the General Manager of her company. Hua Xiaomo didn’t want to complicate their professional ties by becoming lovers; that would be unbearable and awkward for her. Even though she would find it extrely awkward, what would Candy think if she found out? She hoped Candy could be more rational. She also wished Zi Yunsui would be more rational and stop pursuing this ambiguous relationship with her.
In short, the thought of maintaining a romantic relationship with Zi Yunsui felt deeply unnatural and uncomfortable to her. She had never seriously contemplated such a relationship, as it would only bring sadness and embarrassnt. She hoped their connection could remain purely professional; that was good enough. A working relationship would always maintain a sense of normalcy and stability. It was definitely not like the current situation, where these feelings had beco so unbearable and oppressive, the pressure truly suffocating. She wished their interactions could return to normal, that they wouldn’t be so distressing anymore.
She felt it was better to maintain a collegial relationship with Zi Yunsui. After all, Zi Yunsui was her General Manager, and she, Hua Xiaomo, was the Chairwoman; their relationship was strictly one of superior and subordinate. Beyond that, she wished for no other kind of connection, except perhaps friendship. Yes, they could only remain ordinary friends. They couldn’t develop a romantic relationship, because such a relationship would be incredibly painful—especially since she had already decided to be with Qi Longbing.
She had decided to marry Qi Longbing. She hoped he could free himself from his current marital constraints and annul his marriage. Only then could she truly be with him. This was what she had always thought and believed. She was continuously acting in accordance with these convictions, including in how she handled her relationship with Candy. She encouraged Candy to spend more ti with Qi Longbing, fostering a good relationship between them. All her actions were aid at providing Candy with a family. She hoped Candy could return to her biological father’s embrace, that Qi Longbing would truly love Candy, and that he could rejoin their lives. She had already accepted Qi Longbing. She had always believed everything was fine as it was and had never intended to complicate things with Zi Yunsui.
But now, this sudden derailnt left her feeling lost. Her relationship with Zi Yunsui had beco confusing and difficult to manage. Moreover, this kind of relationship with Zi Yunsui felt too thorny to handle. She truly didn’t know how to deal with these emotions; another burden was the last thing she could bear. Her heart was already so heavy. She wished she and Qi Longbing could keep things simple, that they could continue loving each other. She didn’t want any other feelings to interfere. But if Zi Yunsui suddenly intervened, then her relationship with Zi Yunsui would beco complicated, as would her relationship with Qi Longbing, inevitably leading to a love triangle. A love triangle would undoubtedly cause imnse pain and suffering.
She wished their relationships could remain simple, avoiding complexity and pain. A three-person emotional entanglent was truly unsustainable. She hoped Candy would listen to her and maintain a good relationship with Qi Longbing. Well, that had always been her hope. She had always wished for Qi Longbing to be with her and Candy, for the three of them to achieve familial happiness. Beyond that, she didn’t want to think about anything else.
This was truly her mindset. But how could she convince Zi Yunsui? That had indeed beco a problem. Because now, with this involvent with Zi Yunsui—the fact that they had been together—it truly made Hua Xiaomo feel sowhat embarrassed. She genuinely felt sorry for Zi Yunsui, as Zi Yunsui had indeed been very good to her. However, Hua Xiaomo couldn’t reciprocate those feelings. She felt there was a significant age gap between them; besides, she was older than Zi Yunsui.
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