"..." It’s been 5 days since we moved the troops to the coastal area, I’m here with Freya overseeing and I must say I’m surprised.
"Freya, how have they already mapped 50% of this huge area?" I question incredulously, they didn’t use magic, they walked and drew the map of every point for maximum efficiency.
"It’s just a lot of motivation, Aokitsu... they’re motivated to be rewarded when this is over," Freya says as she drinks a strange fruit juice, observing the sea.
"The sea is beautiful, don’t you think, Aokitsu?" She asks out of nowhere as I montarily observe.
"I don’t know, it’s just saltwater, you can’t even drink it," I don’t know what’s beautiful about it, it’s just a bunch of water.
"It’s a sha you can’t see the beauty of the sea... but I think you should try to enjoy the mont, it’s a rarity to have the sea available like this."
"In the past, touching the ocean was a taboo, since the goddess who controls all this is quite tyrannical, and it’s only thanks to Pandora that the sea is now minimally accessible," Freya says with a small smile.
"...Freya, why do you always try to talk to like this?" I question without understanding, since Pandora said she would be responsible for and that the traitor’s territory would be passed on to under Freya’s supervision, she hasn’t stopped having these strange conversations with .
"Haaa..." She lets out a tired sigh.
"Aokitsu, I’m just trying to teach you to enjoy life a little..." Freya speaks with a sad tone, she’s usually so cold that I’ve never noticed this.
"..." I sit next to her, remaining silent.
"You know, Aokitsu... I... knew Thalor was a traitor," She says, surprising .
"...I could have... told Her Majesty, but I didn’t... because I thought it might be better to just keep it to myself, even if sothing bad could happen in the future."
"Thalor was... a great friend of mine, and I know my duty well, I’m a servant and should have reported it, clearly I’m loyal, but I also have my feelings... Thalor helped establish my territory, helped govern when I had problems, and taught several things."
"He was like a father to ... and between the choice of turning him in to Her Majesty and staying silent, letting fate take its course, I... was weak, cowardly, I didn’t tell about him and waited... in the end, the obvious happened, he was discovered on his own."
"Her Majesty is... very smart, it was obvious that sooner or later she would notice... and when she did, she did sothing even more obvious, killing the traitor, without rcy, without prison, without second chances."
"...Not having told her is the sa as a cri, by not having spoken that I knew, I’m practically also a traitor... but I also like her, she’s a magnificent king and I didn’t want... to ruin everything."
"That’s why, Aokitsu, I’m so committed to helping you... I want... to redeem myself from this mistake, I’m trying to show that I’m still loyal to her... besides, I don’t doubt that Her Majesty suspects ."
"Her gaze is no longer the sa for , although sothing still holds her back from trying to go deeper, so I don’t know if this is a second chance, or if she just thinks killing isn’t worth the cost yet, after all I lead one of the territories," Freya speaks with sadness in her voice.
"..."
"And... ironic, isn’t it? Between choosing Her Majesty or choosing Thalor, I decided to just ignore both... since both were important to ... seeing Thalor die was... sad."
"But it was also what I needed to not have to choose or continue pretending that everything was fine... now all I can do is try to fix this mistake by training you properly."
"I’m trying to teach you everything you don’t have, and I’m trying to teach you to love our people just the way they are, they can be a chaotic, violent, and morally questionable people for others."
"However, they are also a loving, welcoming people who know how to enjoy life to the fullest... I know our life is not the best, but it’s all we have."
"And that’s also why I’m trying to enjoy life now... because I don’t know if Her Majesty will forever ignore that I didn’t tell her about Thalor, or if she’ll kill when things are stable enough and she no longer needs ."
"If she decides to just ignore it, I’ll be imnsely grateful for the second chance, but if she decides to kill ... I’d understand and just accept it, I can no longer claim to have been loyal to her my whole life when I hid sothing so important." When Freya says this, I decide to ask.
"Why don’t you just run away then if you’re afraid of dying?" When I ask this, her gaze becos even sadder.
"Please don’t try to give such cowardly ideas, I may have failed, but I’m still loyal to her, and as a servant who made a mistake, I understand if she punishes with death, I can only wait and do my best to help her."
"Why do you think Pandora knows?" Pandora, in my view, seed too tyrannical to let sothing like this go unnoticed.
"It’s simple, because she no longer ’observes’ , but sothing else," She says, leaving confused.
"...?"
"You know, I don’t know what your Her Majesty has, but she often looks beyond people, as if she’s seeing sothing that others can’t see, you can notice that she’s evaluating this sotis."
"And when she looked at Thalor, it was different, her gaze beca sharper, more dangerous and closed, as if the spiral of her pupil was delving deeper."
"Normally these spirals seem static, until you stare too much or Her Majesty gets too focused... with that, you can say, if she looks directly at you, it ans she’s focused on you."
"But if even while looking at you, her eyes are focused on sothing else, then she’s looking at sothing different while observing you... and the sa gaze she gave Thalor, she sotis gives ."
"As if she’s evaluating sothing, after evaluating for about 5 seconds, she stops and ignores ... that’s enough for to know, she looks at the way she looked at Thalor, and she knew of Thalor’s betrayal, so she must obviously know sothing about too..."
"Anyway, whether she knows or not doesn’t matter, what matters is that I know I was wrong and I’m trying to redeem myself from this mistake," Freya says as she observes the soldiers taking a break.
"...So why are you courting out of the blue?" I question, doubting this, now I know why she keeps trying to teach strange things that have nothing to do with leadership and armies, but I don’t know why she keeps courting sotis.
"..."
"It’s... that I’m really worried about dying... I would accept my death if it ca, but that doesn’t an I want to die... so I’m trying to live life a little."
"You’re... very beautiful, and you’re always by my side lately, I thought maybe I could try romance or sothing, at least once before I die, it would be nice to have a relationship with soone," She says, looking at with a crooked smile.
’...’
"Freya, then... if you want to have a relationship with , why don’t you do the sa as other demons and try to trap ?" This strange modality of marriages is ridiculously common, so she could repeat it.
"I’m not a man, kidnapping a partner is a male tactic, girls usually don’t do that... I think in my whole life I’ve only seen three won kidnap partners, and one of them was Her Majesty, who briefly kidnapped Queen Zephyra."
"Won prefer simpler courtships most of the ti," She says, while only feeding another doubt.
"But I’m a girl," It wouldn’t make sense for her to court a man if she wants a romance.
"...Aokitsu, unlike the wild male beasts who prefer a partner to marry, have children, and build a life in a more animalistic way, demons often choose romance just for pleasure and not for family ties."
"Many demons don’t want children, just the act of being intimately involved with soone."
"And when we decide to have a relationship solely for physical and ntal pleasure, whether girl or boy doesn’t matter, as long as it generates the little satisfaction a relationship brings."
"...So... you’re courting just for my body?" I say with so disgust, I hope that’s not the case.
"No, I’m courting you because you’re beautiful, and you’re close to for long periods of ti, because we’re creating a bond as I teach you things, and because... I don’t want to die without experiencing a relationship."
"Don’t think of this as a loveless relationship, I believe we already get along well and that love could develop over ti, I’ve already opened up to you here and now by telling you about... my sin, I think it’s a good first step for a possible relationship, right?" She asks without much confidence.
"..." I think about it, I’ve never been in a relationship with anyone, nor have I tried, although I’ve thought a lot about it in tis when I was in heat.
"I..." I get up to leave, turning my back to her.
"I’ll be in heat in about 1 month... if you treat well, listen to my pain, and... court until then... maybe sothing will happen," I say, quickly leaving in embarrassnt, giving it a chance, I must admit that seeing her sad shook a little.
She’s usually so cold, serious, and intuitive that I never noticed she was sad all the ti, she doesn’t usually make many easy expressions because she’s so kind of ice demon.
’Well... it’s not just Pandora who can have a relationship.’ Several girls in the castle are starting sothing like that, maybe I should too, right? I’ve even heard that Calypso is starting sothing.
Although I’m not sure if it’s a romantic relationship, but she’s definitely writing letters to a distant "friend" with a unique devotion that seems beyond friendship.
I decide to go to my resting place to think about this strange conversation and the relationships I’ve never had because I’ve been busy as the leader of my race.
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