Su Xingyan looked as if he had aged ten years, disheveled and with a very poor complexion. When he spoke to Han Jing, there was an indescribable sadness in his tone.
"Alright, whatever you have to say, just say it!" Han Jing wasn’t being soft-hearted, but she knew that no matter what Su Xingyan said or did, there could be no connection between her and him anymore. She hated Su Xingyan, but it hadn’t reached the point of life and death between them.
If he would just say what he needed to and then get lost, it would be a happy ending for both of them.
Su Xingyan stood about three ters away from Han Jing. The courtyard was silent; Han Jing had already dismissed the servants, leaving only the two of them.
Su Xingyan quietly watched Han Jing, ti standing still like a dream.
He wished more than anything that this was indeed a dream, that ti could forever linger in such a dreamscape. Just watching her quietly, letting ti pass peacefully.
But he knew that was impossible.
She would be marrying soone else tomorrow, and from then on, there would be no more possibilities between them.
Clearly, she was soone he could have had, but after he fell in love with her, she no longer belonged to him.
He suddenly rembered when they were at the Liangshan Palace, and his father had once told him that so things, once missed, could never be retrieved. At the ti, he didn’t believe it. He never believed it was his fault. He even asked Han Si Que if he ever regretted it, how he would choose if he could do it all over again.
Only now did he understand the words his father had said, only now understood the feelings Han Si Que had back then.
So people in this world, once lost, really can never co back.
Have you ever regretted it?
Of course, he regretted it. Only now did he understand what it truly ant to regret past actions.
"Han Jing, if ti could start over, if I hadn’t treated you that way, if those things hadn’t happened between us, would you have liked ? Would we have been together?" If ti could start over, if he had known that one day he would fall for Han Jing, would he have treated her well from the beginning? If he had treated her well from the start, would everything have been different?
"No." Han Jing answered him without a mont’s hesitation.
"Whether or not you slapped , I would never have liked you."
Su Xingyan’s face turned deathly pale, and he cried aloud, "Why?"
Han Jing chuckled softly, "Because ti will never start over, and even if it did, you still wouldn’t be the one I would like."
Han Jing was very clear; for soone like her, to like soone was an incredibly difficult thing. She didn’t even know what it truly felt like to like soone. Even now, she thought she liked Su Yu, but this liking was likely just her trying to accept him, to trust him.
She didn’t understand what a deeper liking or love felt like.
Since she woke up in this world till now, two n had moved her heart. One was Su Yu, and the other was Su Xingqiao. Su Yu gave her everything she could imagine that a man might give a woman. If her heart was ice, she admitted that the warmth Su Yu gave her lted her into water, made her feel full of warmth inside, and made her unconsciously want to get close to him.
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