"Actually, I’m just complaining a bit. I don’t really mind your jealousy, sotis I even enjoy it. Maybe it’s the pain and pleasure mixed together? Your jealousy, your displeasure because of , it’s all because you care about , and I need to cherish that. Sotis it can be troubling, but that’s life, isn’t it? Even a couple who has been together for a lifeti occasionally quarrel and have conflicts, right?"
Shu Yu was startled, "I thought..."
Thinking she was comparing him to Lao San, thinking she believed he wasn’t as good as Shujun, thinking she despised his jealousy, thinking she considered him narrow-minded, thinking... so many assumptions, but it was all his own assumptions.
Dong Huiying leaned forward and patted his head, "Actually, what I don’t like is this."
He stiffened slightly, a man skilled at hiding his feelings seed defenseless in front of her, his emotions were written all over his face unexpectedly.
Dong Huiying chuckled, "See, I knew it, it’s like this again."
She sighed lightly, "A little more confidence, okay? What I don’t like is that you, Shu Yu, think too much, it’s not good, it’s too tiring. I hope our big family can all be happy, and not always overthink and imagine all sorts of unnecessary things."
Shu Yu probably had a lack of security, and she didn’t know why she drew such a conclusion. Maybe it’s because he cared too much, so he felt uneasy?
In front of her, he was actually very cautious, most of the ti, he acted very carefully, as if afraid she would dislike him.
Even those "little jealousies" of his, his little expressions when he’s jealous, were just to make her look at him more, pay him a little more attention.
She understood, she understood it all, she knew it all.
"We are supposed to spend a lifeti together, aren’t we? Always like this won’t work, for example this ti, just a casual remark from , and you interpreted it in so many ways. But I didn’t an it like that at all, I don’t even think there’s anything wrong with you holding grudges. At least, holding grudges ensures one thing - you won’t be hurt a second ti by soone who has hard you before, you won’t repeatedly harm yourself because of soone. As your wife, I’m actually quite glad about that."
Shu Yu said "hmm," then looked thoughtful. "Am I like this? Huiying thinks I’m very insecure? Insecure..."
He was dazed for a mont, suddenly recalling sothing from a long, long ti ago.
Having a great mory is really troubling sotis.
Just like those things that happened in childhood, whether it was because he was sickly all the ti, his brothers’ mother, Liang Yuru, found him a burden, once nearly poisoned him, or later... all deeply imprinted in his mind.
That year, he had a sumr cold, and he and Shujun’s father wanted to earn more Silver, stayed up nights for many days doing needlework, hoping to sell it in town to get so copper coins and hire a "Doctor" to treat him.
At that ti, in his naive awareness, he took it all as a matter of course, the care and love from his father were sothing he enjoyed from the mont he could rember, and at that ti, he never noticed anything wrong.
Until one day, before his father left, he said to him, "The village is too far from the town, father’s walking is slow, I’m afraid I won’t be back until tomorrow night. Yuyu, you should behave at ho, if your mother scolds you, cover your ears and don’t listen to her nonsense, okay?"
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