Dong Huiying paused upon hearing the thunderous crash behind her. But imdiately after, she resud her steps.
She didn’t understand him, never did understand him.
She wasn’t ignorant nor a fool; she could faintly guess why exactly he was angry.
But so what?
In the night, she walked alone with a face full of bleak sorrow.
She thought, she already couldn’t return to the past.
In the beginning, she yearned for a lifelong companionship with one person.
But when she was determined to spend her life with only one person, the laws of the Imperial Court along with the emotions of others were like chains binding her.
It took her a long ti to persuade herself to accept it. And she indeed did accept. But after that, through imrsion and influence, under the background of society, she gradually changed, she couldn’t return to the past.
If now, if Ruo Zhichen proposed to run away and elope with her, offering her a choice of lifelong companionship with one person, she thought she couldn’t do it, she couldn’t agree.
She carried enough emotional debt already. How could she pretend all those things never happened?
Once, he was part of the system convincing himself to accept it, but now, he was now rebelling fiercely.
She’s tired.
With a bitter smile, she forcefully closed her eyes, thinking she could hold back the tears brewing in her eyes, yet a clear tear still slid down from the corner of her eye...
***
Last year, after spending a whole year out with Yue Ning, Dong Huiying also stayed in cities under curfew. But South City, as the base of the Seventh Princess, is the princess’s stronghold, where it remains peaceful without a curfew.
Even after nightfall, the city remains bustling.
She walked into a small tavern, tossed out a piece of silver, and asked the waiter to bring her so appetizers.
She drank cup after cup, but her chopsticks lay still, as if the appetizers on the table were just decorations.
She reminisced, thought about many things, having been in this world for several thoughts now.
Before coming to this world, in the place she originally lived, what was she like?
Emotional debt, the hardest to repay, emotional debt, also the heaviest.
She missed ho.
But what she missed was not this world’s ho, but the days when she lived alone before. No need to worry about these chaotic things, no need to be emotionally drained for others, no need to get caught in whirlwinds without rescue, just sinking deeper.
Back then, absent minded, she was relaxed, only needing to focus on her work, leaving the rest of her ti free to arrange as she pleased.
But here, her every day, every night was occupied by n.
She was tired, very tired.
She longed for the carefree tis before, but longing is just longing.
Don’t ntion she simply doesn’t understand why she ended up in this world from an accident, even if she understood, even if she could return, perhaps she couldn’t leave everything here behind.
Shujun, deeply affectionate, Shu Yu, cherishing her, Haoming, Yue Ning, she admitted these two did not hold great significance in her heart, but one honest and one naive, their emotional devotion worth her earnest response, and finally, Yixuan...
Forget it, no point in thinking more, drink and forget the troubles of today, why bother bringing more woes?
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