"I was wrong, I admit my mistake. Considering my errors, it’s understandable for the wife to grow cold-hearted and truly consider leaving . Yet, even if there’s just a fraction, just the slightest bit of emotion left in her heart, could she grant another chance? Your surroundings are crowded, but in your heart, could there be a place reserved for ?"
As he spoke, he let out a bitter laugh.
"I won’t hide it from you. Since you left yesterday, I’ve been reflecting constantly. I wonder, why was the old able to accept all of this so peacefully, and why does the current resist it so strongly?"
"I finally reached a conclusion. It’s because, as you all have said, I used to be part of the Liang family; I was the eldest son, the big brother among the siblings."
"The environnt growing up, the background, and the responsibilities I had to shoulder prevented that person from indulging in his own willfulness. He even regarded his family as everything."
"For his family, for his brothers at ho, he could endure any hardship, he could bear a lot of weight. But in the end, without that past, I am not him."
He looked at her, smiling forlornly.
"But in the wife’s heart, she has always loved that forr him, not the current . I lack a sense of responsibility, I have no siblings, no family, I am an independent personality, I never perceive myself as him, and have never mixed these two lives together."
"However, in your eyes, there’s no difference. As long as occupying this body, regardless of which personality resides inside, what you all value is only the forr him, not the current ."
These were his innermost thoughts.
How much strength is needed to pretend you don’t care at all?
When he realized his feelings, he even had despicable thoughts. Let it be, he felt like a thief.
With his split identity, he stole the lover, family, brothers, and everything belonging to the forr him.
But no matter, those who achieve great things don’t care about details; if he could be with his beloved, what does it matter to be despicable and shaless? He is willing to be this petty person!!
However, he was ultimately too naive in his thinking.
His ntal preparation was too little, not enough.
So when he found out the wife was together with Shu Yu... he couldn’t control himself and lost control.
The world is full of bitterness, no one is an exception. But this bitterness, each is different.
As bystanders, people can easily criticize here and there, thinking the involved parties are wrong in this or that. Yet if one was to truly experience it, they would understand that this pain is not physical but originates from the heart, acting on the soul—it is tornt, helplessness, and when facing reality, an unavoidable compromise.
For the sake of this compromise, one might have to break their longstanding persistence, personally shatter their pride, destroy their forr convictions.
Of course, he didn’t have to do this. But the word ’emotion’ is too complex.
If it could be abandoned, why would one yield?
And the so-called compromise is rely because the love is too true, too deep, too heavy, unwilling to leave her, unwilling for her to leave him, not wanting their future lives to be void of her presence.
Given that things have co to this point, he has no choice left.
But his mood is like self-abuse.
Because, he doesn’t regret.
Even if given another chance, even knowing he would face the sa dilemma, he thinks, he would still fall in love with the woman who brought him so much pain...
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