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Wen Qianyi found Li Yan undressed and pressing onto her, and only then did she feel panic, finally realizing that what she thought was a joke had unexpectedly led to a self-destructive situation!
At this point, she could not avoid acknowledging that she had unknowingly developed feelings for Li Yan, otherwise, she wouldn't have felt so upset upon discovering him with Hai Fu; otherwise, she wouldn't have avoided him for twenty days; otherwise, seeing him shake hands publicly with Hai Fu and Zhang Yurong today wouldn't have made her uncomfortable...
She was born on the sa year, month, and day as Zhang Yurong, and a month ago, she had already turned twenty-five. If she truly lost herself, and the person involved was a man she liked, she wouldn't find it too hard to accept.
What Qianyi couldn't accept was that Li Yan obtained her in such a manner! That was indeed infuriating, or perhaps he felt there was no chance to be with her, thus even if he couldn't get her heart, he would forcibly take her body.
This pained her greatly, tears flowed uncontrollably! It felt like she misjudged him. She always thought Li Yan was a lustful man, but one with principles and responsibility. The best proof of this was Yu Xiaodi's passionate pursuit over half a year and yet she remained a virgin. Although her view changed after knowing he had another lover in Hai Fu, she never thought he would be like this!
Yet when Li Yan saw her tears, he imdiately stopped his actions and weakly collapsed onto her. This surprised her; if he truly intended to rape her, with her neither screaming nor strongly resisting, he should have taken advantage then. Why did it seem he cared about her feelings? If he cared, why did he do sothing hurtful?
Imdiately, Li Yan's apology and his heart-wrenching words in her ear greatly affected her!
n are visual creatures, most sensitive to visual stimuli; won, auditory creatures, are more sensitive to auditory stimuli. Sweet words spoken softly at their ears easily touch their hearts.
In addition to speaking softly and having physiological advantages, Li Yan's words moved her deeply. He was worried all this ti! Because she didn't express herself, he worried that today's departure would be their break, and he didn't want to lose her! He would rather convert cooked rice into cooked food to keep her!
Such words, if spoken by soone disliked, only increase resentnt; if spoken by soone liked, won's soft hearts often more easily accept their explanations.
"I've already done this to you… you probably won't forgive , right?"
Li Yan's last sentence sounded very forlorn to Wen Qianyi, and she understood that even if she forgave his offense, with this matter having happened, he would be ashad, and they definitely couldn't return to their previous intimate and friendly relationship!
The various events since they t half a year ago quickly flashed through her mind. Suddenly, she realized he had surpassed so longti friends in importance within her heart! This month's avoidance was also filled with difficult days for herself.
Is it really necessary to break up? She felt a bit lost.
Even soone as rational and calm as Wen Qianyi had a side of impulsiveness because, after all, she is still a woman.
"I've already been stained by you, can it be as if nothing happened?"
Li Yan slightly pondered this and had already reacted. It's already at this point, in a certain sense, the most intimate contact has already happened. And Qianyi's words didn't seem to resist, rather hinting at a compromising attitude he hoped for!
He didn't have ti to think why Wen Qianyi transford from sadness and tears to subtly accepting him, but he knew this was an opportunity, a chance for them to be together!
The uncooked rice had jumped into the pot by itself, the dry wood hadn't ignited a raging fire to turn it into cooked food—once missed, this could be truly gone!
"You're right, it's already happened, can't act as if it didn't…"
Li Yan lowered his head and kissed her again…
…
After a long struggle, the room finally fell quiet. The sheets on the bed were already rumpled and ssy, and their clothes were discarded around the bed.
"You finally got your way…" Wen Qianyi sighed softly.
Li Yan held her tightly, forced a dry laugh, and could only silently recite 'silence is golden', knowing that saying anything might be wrong; saying sothing hurtful could damage emotions; saying sothing flattering might seem insincere.
With nothing to say, he could only replace words with a more gentle caress.
After a while, Wen Qianyi softly said, "Don't worry, I won't accuse you of rape… nor will I bla you, no matter what… I didn't resist strongly myself."
Li Yan silently listened, now calm down, he estimated that turning cooked rice into cooked food might not have much effect on a rational and assertive girl like Qianyi.
"If getting your body ans losing your heart, I'll be deeply regretful…"
"Then what?" Wen Qianyi smiled bitterly, "I admit, you made fall for you without realizing it. Otherwise, I wouldn't let you take advantage repeatedly without distancing myself. Including… just now…"
Li Yan also understood, yes, if she didn't like , how could she let kiss her, sleep with her, and get over it in a few days? Yet just now… that was truly sleeping together! Makes a big difference.
"But, what you want, is sothing I can't do. What I want, you can't give. You haven't completely lost my heart; this is just how far our fate goes. I won't, like silly Xiaodi, disregard everything for you, nor, like Hai Fu, willingly be your mistress. Today's incident… let's consider it a good ending and a mory for closure!"
Wen Qianyi felt disoriented again, she always knew what she wanted. But now, for a man who clearly couldn't be together with her, she had given up her cherished first ti.
Was it worth it?
Was it not worth it?
Listening to her words, feeling her emotional changes, Li Yan suddenly started laughing.
His sowhat rude behavior made Wen Qianyi frown.
"Part on good terms? End it, commorate it?" Li Yan held her tightly, making the two of them pressed together. "Why say sothing so discouraging? Why not give each other a little more ti, and let everything happen naturally!"
But Wen Qianyi didn't have any intention of being fooled and said blandly, "Let it be? You want to clone everything that happened with Hai Fu, right? You think I'll be unable to leave you after a while? It's impossible! I won't do this a second ti with you; aren't you already enjoying the blessings of having multiple won? Not satisfied yet? Really dreaming of having three wives and four concubines?"
Li Yan indeed had such thoughts. Initially, Hai Fu also thought there would be no further relationships, but now it was a different situation. Since he could have her heart and her body, he hoped the conceptual differences could gradually change.
"Alright, I won't force you. But at least there's one thing you must promise !"
"What?"
"Just like when you were angry and ignored , give yourself a little ti to calm down! The New Year is approaching, I won't bother you, but I hope you don't casually agree to a blind date and get engaged! After we get back, we can... discuss it then. How about that?"
After listening to him, Wen Qianyi pondered slightly. She had no intention of blind dating, even if he didn't say anything, she also needed ti to calm down.
"I know! You haven't co to find these past few weeks, and suddenly, you co today when the holiday starts, afraid I might go ho and get engaged on a blind date, right?" Wen Qianyi saw through his purpose for coming today and couldn't help but mock him a bit.
"Correction! I seem to have called soone N tis, but each ti the call was refused, leaving repeatedly depressed and heartbroken. Also, I've co to this door looking for soone, yet that person disappeared in anticipation and didn't allow to look outside. Today, I'm indeed here for that purpose, how about it? Of course, I'm afraid my woman might act hastily and do sothing foolish that everyone would regret!" Li Yan said frankly.
Wen Qianyi pinched out again with her right hand.
"Who is your woman?" Indeed, he had tried to contact her many tis, leaving her speechless, but still, she didn't want to see him gloat. "Even if I go on a blind date, so what? It's my freedom, didn't Hai Fu also go on blind dates? How's that foolish! You just want to occupy without using!"
"...!"
Li Yan held back laughter, enduring internal injury.
After Wen Qianyi finished speaking, she noticed his difficulty in holding back laughter and suddenly realized that using the phrase "occupy without using" was not suitable then, as it indirectly compared herself to a pit latrine, which was truly disgusting!
In embarrassnt and anger, she could only pinch him hard with her fingers.
This playful exchange relieved the awkwardness and weight after they had been intimate, and they both tacitly agreed not to bring it up again.
"Co on! I'll carry you to bathe." Li Yan sat up.
"I don't want you to carry ..." Wen Qianyi stubbornly shook her head, "You go bathe first, and leave after you bathe!"
Leaving her here alone, she might inevitably feel saddened by the scene and indulge in self-pity, so Li Yan was unwilling to see such a situation. Therefore, without further ado, he directly got up, holding her and heading outside.
Wen Qianyi kicked her feet forcefully, but unfortunately, she couldn't break free from his embrace. She could only mutter, "I practically led a wolf into my room today..."
...
Wen Qianyi was a bit inconvenient physically, so in the bathroom, she had to endure Li Yan's fussing. Only, both of them were naked, unlike before when they were covered with a quilt in bed. Seeing each other openly in the bathroom made her very uncomfortable, so she could only half-close her eyes.
After they finished bathing, Li Yan carefully helped dry her off, then carried her back to the bedroom.
As she looked at the ssy bed and clothes scattered all around, Wen Qianyi felt a bit emotional. She couldn't care less about putting on clothes and first went to change the sheets.
Li Yan also helped tidy up by the side, and after she changed the sheets, he didn't let her put on clothes, imdiately carrying her onto the bed and wrapping both of them in a quilt, making it warr and pulling their hearts closer together.
"You worked hard just now; take a rest!"
"You're not leaving yet?"
"Leave to where? Of course, I have to stay with you!"
"Hmph! Don't you need to go find your lover? It's the New Year; you're going back ho, right? You'll be apart for so ti; don't you need to stay with her?" As Wen Qianyi said this, a bit of jealousy seeped into her words, making her feel strange.
Li Yan embraced her and gently said, "To be honest, if it were just about desire between us, I might as well go find her, it'd be more satisfying. But, I ca for you! Besides, leaving now would make feel heartless, right? You might hate for it!"
"Hmph! Who cares about you?" Wen Qianyi slightly frowned; his words were stinging! She couldn't help but say, "If being with her is so satisfying, why seek out? It hurt , and you weren't happy, so why ruin ?"
Li Yan was bemused by her words; how did this happen!
Smiling bitterly, he said, "Qianyi, where did your thoughts go? I was indeed happy; I'm not just about possessing you. When I said earlier, it was just to say because it's your first ti, you got hurt, and I felt bad..."
That was sowhat acceptable; Wen Qianyi felt a bit better.
Any generous woman compared negatively on bed, especially being outdone, would feel uncomfortable.
Holding Wen Qianyi, Li Yan was moved. He turned his head and passionately kissed her again. Wen Qianyi was a bit surprised, but given the circumstances, she didn't refuse...
(On January 2, 2011, Old Lai ca to register on Qidian, which was January 2, 2004. In the blink of an eye, it has been seven years!)(To be continued. For more details on the next developnts, please log on to qidian. More chapters are available, support the author, support legitimate readings!)
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