An Ning shook her head, "If it weren’t for you, I would have left Xiao Jinxing long ago, left the Imperial Palace, and stayed away from politics."
But if Xiao Jinxing could let Gu Xingchuan go this ti, she could let everything go and reconcile with him.
Of course.
That’s all talk for later.
After all, Xiao Jinxing still chose, his choice.
"Do you really still love Fu Xingyi?" Gu Xingchuan suddenly changed the subject.
An Ning pressed her lips together.
"Can’t you really let him go?" Gu Xingchuan asked deeply.
"Perhaps, I’ve let go." An Ning suddenly said calmly, "After all, he’s been dead for so many years, what is there that I can’t let go of? Just like with you, perhaps one day, I will truly let go as well. Ti is sotis cruel."
"I hope so." Gu Xingchuan smiled.
I hope ti can make you forget all the unhappiness of the past.
Live well.
"By the way," An Ning suddenly rembered sothing, seemingly unwilling to continue the lancholic topic, "Xie Ruotong is coming back, probably in a day or two."
Gu Xingchuan seed to smile a bit mockingly at the corner of his mouth, "Coming back to see off?"
"Probably."
"I can die without regrets then." Gu Xingchuan said.
An Ning smiled faintly, remaining silent.
"March’s sunshine should be splendid, shouldn’t it?" Gu Xingchuan suddenly asked.
"It’s very splendid," An Ning replied.
"In a few days, I’ll be able to see it."
In a few days.
And I’ll never see it again.
An Ning suppressed her inner emotions.
She thought she had prepared herself for everything.
But when facing Gu Xingchuan’s death, it wasn’t as calm as she had imagined.
But ultimately, she still had to face it.
An Ning spent a day with Gu Xingchuan.
As the execution drew nearer, she spent more and more ti in the Heavenly Prison.
More and more unwilling to leave.
When An Ning walked out of the Heavenly Prison, the sky was completely dark.
She returned to Fengqi Palace.
As soon as she entered, she saw Xiao Jinxing.
She thought, even within the Imperial Palace, they would never et again.
Xiao Jinxing had made his choice.
And she had accepted his choice.
Both understood each other well enough.
They were both adults, there was no need to trouble each other further.
An Ning, in the end, said nothing.
Xiao Jinxing was the emperor.
In the Imperial Palace, he was supre.
There was nowhere he couldn’t be.
She walked into the hall and saluted, "This concubine greets Your Majesty."
Xiao Jinxing was sitting on the chaise, seemingly writing with ink.
Just like when he used to practice calligraphy when bored.
So after being busy for a couple of months, he finally had so free ti, did he?!
"Have you had dinner?" Xiao Jinxing asked.
"No."
"Just as well, I haven’t either, join for dinner." Xiao Jinxing glanced up at her.
Then put down the ink and pen.
An Ning responded with a sound.
The Palace Attendant brought in the al.
The two sat together at the dining table, eating in silence.
"Do you hate ?" Xiao Jinxing suddenly spoke.
An Ning pressed her lips, "After so long, why is Your Majesty suddenly asking this?"
If he really wanted to explain or know her feelings, shouldn’t it have been when he issued the imperial edict?
And now, bringing it up suddenly...
How should she answer?
Say that she hated him?!
Or that she’s too tired to hate?
"In seven days, Gu Xingchuan will be executed." Xiao Jinxing said.
"No hatred." An Ning suddenly replied.
Xiao Jinxing’s fingers visibly tensed.
"To Your Majesty, this is the righteousness you must uphold. This concubine dares not go against the will of the people to resent Your Majesty. That would be a grave disrespect and this concubine’s loss of propriety." An Ning said calmly.
"Sotis, I wish you could hate ." Xiao Jinxing murmured.
An Ning chuckled lightly, without responding.
"I thought during this ti, you would co to see , even to vent your emotions, but in the end, I never expected your arrival." Xiao Jinxing said, with a hint of self-mockery and loneliness.
Yet, in the end, it is always he who takes the initiative.
"Song Yanqing advised , Gu Xingchuan advised , even Bai Mowan, who deeply despises , advised to understand Your Majesty’s helplessness. How can I, for my selfish desires, make things difficult for Your Majesty? Everything Your Majesty has done is for the country and the people. I dare not act recklessly." An Ning was sincere, slightly humble.
Xiao Jinxing lightly pursed his lips.
Just like that, looking at An Ning, so close but so far away.
"If I let Gu Xingchuan go, would you truly return to ?" Xiao Jinxing asked her.
"There is no ’if’, is there?" An Ning countered.
With the edict issued and the imperial announcent made.
Everything was already finalized.
She never made aningless assumptions, nor did she want to give herself unrealistic illusions.
"Did you ever love ? Was there ever a mont you actually loved ? Was there ever a mont when looking at my face, you didn’t think of Fu Xingyi?" Xiao Jinxing asked her, his deep eyes looking intently at her.
"Never loved." An Ning enunciated clearly.
No need to cover it up, just straightforward.
"Is that so?" Xiao Jinxing’s eyes slightly shifted.
In his eyes, that little bit of desperate hope turned into complete despair.
"The words you said about trying to love , it turns out I was overthinking." Xiao Jinxing was indifferent.
Actually, it was hard to tell, from his tone.
Maybe like her, he had let everything go, so he beca so calm.
"Trying doesn’t an one will definitely fall in love. But if you are willing to let Gu Xingchuan go for , I can be grateful and treat you well. I can stay in the harem for you, be a good wife and mother for you, give you advice, and do many things you think I can do..."
"The only thing you can’t do, love ." Xiao Jinxing interrupted An Ning’s words directly.
An Ning pressed her lips, "Right, the only thing is that I cannot love you, everything else I can."
"An Ning, you always know how to hurt the most," Xiao Jinxing said with a light laugh, his words so powerless.
And yet he can only, silently endure.
"Just as you know what I want, yet you always do the opposite." An Ning was cold.
"So we are destined, not to be together." Xiao Jinxing concluded.
"After Gu Xingchuan’s execution, I hope Your Majesty can keep your promise to Gu Xingchuan and let go." An Ning’s eyes were firm.
She initially planned, to wait until after Gu Xingchuan’s execution to confront Xiao Jinxing.
Since he had co proactively, it was better to clarify things now.
"Still going to leave?" Xiao Jinxing asked.
"Isn’t this your decision, Your Majesty?!" An Ning countered.
Xiao Jinxing was silent.
Silence ant acceptance.
An Ning showed no significant emotional fluctuations, she said, "As for the two children, Luming and Youyou, I will respect their choice. If they wish to stay by your side, I won’t take them away; if they wish to leave with , I just hope Your Majesty won’t stop them."
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