The ICU does not sleep, though the lights dim slightly at night in an attempt to suggest rest. Nothing truly pauses. Machines continue their asured rhythm. Monitors blink steadily. A ventilator breathes with unwavering consistency. Nurses move in and out with quiet efficiency, checking lines, adjusting dication, recording numbers that will later be interpreted by people who are not present now.
Zane stays in the chair beside Willow’s bed.
He does not ask about breaks or food. When a nurse suggests he step out to rest, he shakes his head once, and the conversation ends there. His jacket remains on. His shoes stay where they are. He does not sit back or stretch out. He leans forward, elbows on his knees, close enough that if she were awake she would feel his presence without needing to see him.
Willow lies motionless beneath the thin hospital blanket. Sedation has softened the lines of her face. The ventilator controls the rise and fall of her chest with chanical precision. Her hand rests in his, warm and slack, fingers uncurled.
The thought repeats itself without variation, not as comfort but as instruction. He must stay, pay attention, and not leave.
He talks to her because the nurse tells him it is acceptable.
"She can hear you," the nurse says gently. "Even if she can’t respond. Sotis patients do."
Zane nods as if this confirms sothing he has already decided.
He begins with practical details. He tells her where they are. He repeats what the doctors explained. He tells her the date and the ti, that it is night now and the traffic outside has thinned.
"They put you in a coma to protect you," he says quietly. "It’s temporary. They’re watching everything. Your oxygen levels are good. Your blood pressure stabilized."
He pauses before adding, "They said that part was important."
As he speaks, he watches the monitor and begins to learn its language. The small fluctuations matter only when they persist. When a number dips briefly, his breath catches until it corrects itself again.
"I didn’t leave," he tells her. "I’m still here."
Ti passes without structure.
He tells her about the room and the machines. He ntions the chair and how unforgiving it is. He tells her his mother ca and sat with him for a while, that she wanted him to go ho and sleep, and that he refused.
"She understands," he says. "She didn’t argue."
He lifts his free hand and brushes her hair back from her forehead, careful to avoid the tape and lines. The nurse allows the contact.
"I should have gone in with you," he says quietly. "I know you told not to. I know it wasn’t sothing I could have stopped. But I keep thinking about the door closing behind you. I keep thinking that if I had walked in beside you, sothing might have changed."
He stops speaking and swallows.
"I know that’s not how it works," he continues. "But my mind doesn’t care."
The night deepens. Shift changes occur around him. New nurses introduce themselves softly and look at him with a mixture of sympathy and respect. He does not look up often. He answers questions when required. He signs where he is directed.
Soone brings him water. He drinks it because his mouth is dry and because dehydration would make him less capable if sothing changes.
He keeps talking.
He tells her about the wedding plans they had not finished. About the florist he still had not called back. About the seating chart she kept adjusting because it never felt right to her.
"You were right," he says. "It doesn’t matter. None of it matters."
He watches her face as if it might change without warning.
"I don’t need a ceremony," he continues. "I don’t need witnesses. I don’t need any of it. I just need you to wake up."
His voice tightens, but he keeps it steady.
"You don’t have to be brave," he says. "You don’t have to be strong. You don’t have to do anything impressive. You just have to co back and stay with and Zana."
He presses his thumb lightly against the inside of her wrist, feeling for a pulse already confird by machines. The physical contact still grounds him.
He tells her stories then, small and ordinary. He talks about the ti they spent in the penthouse. About the way she left her shoes by the door even though she insisted she did not. About the morning she burned the toast and laughed instead of apologizing.
"You always apologized before," he says. "You stopped doing that. You stopped shrinking. I noticed."
His eyes burn, but he holds the tears back.
"I was proud of you," he says quietly. "I still am."
A nurse checks Willow’s sedation level. Another records neurological responses. Zane listens without interrupting and absorbs terminology he never wanted to learn. Intracranial pressure remains stable. Oxygenation is adequate. Sedation is maintained.
Ti loses its shape.
He does not know how many hours pass before his voice begins to fail. When it does, he clears his throat and continues anyway, speaking more quietly now and leaning closer.
"I don’t know what you rember," he says. "I don’t know what you heard before they sedated you. But if you heard , even for a second, I hope you know I was there."
He rests his forehead briefly against the edge of the bed, careful not to disturb anything.
"I thought I was strong," he admits. "I thought control ant safety. I was wrong. It doesn’t protect anything."
He straightens again and breathes through the tightness in his chest.
"I need you, Willow," he says. "You are my air."
His thumb moves slowly against the edge of her bandaged hand, careful not to disturb anything. The ventilator answers in steady rhythm.
"I rember the first ti I saw you," he continues quietly. "You were standing next to Miles. I almost didn’t hear anything he was saying. You smiled when he introduced us. Just polite. Just normal. But I was gone. Completely gone. Hook, line and sinker."
A faint tremor moves through his voice, but he does not stop.
"You were gorgeous. Not in a way that asked for attention. In a way that made it impossible to look anywhere else."
He swallows."You still have that affect on Willow...."
"And that dress at Miles and Christy’s pre-engagent party. The one where you said you wanted to look like so dangerous, killer lady. I rember standing there thinking I should take you and hide you away before anyone else noticed what I was seeing."
His mouth tightens faintly.
"Then you kissed ."
He closes his eyes briefly.
"You burned . You still do. Every kiss. Every touch. I burn for you."
His fingers tighten gently around her hand.
"You have to wake up soon, Willow. Zana needs her mommy. And I need my air."
Near morning, his mother returns. She stands in the doorway and watches him for a long mont before speaking.
"You should go ho and change," she says softly.
He does not turn.
"I’m not leaving," he replies.
She steps closer and places a hand on his back. He feels it distantly.
"I know," she says. "I just had to say it."
She stays for an hour and then leaves again. He does not notice when she goes.
The morning staff arrives and the day shift begins. Doctors assess Willow and speak to him in careful, asured terms. They explain again that the coma is protective, that complications occur, and that recovery cannot be rushed.
Zane listens. He asks precise questions. He takes notes he does not look at again.
He keeps talking to Willow.
He tells her about the ring he chose, about how he almost changed his mind and then did not, and about the look on her face when he proposed.
"I thought that was the happiest I would ever be," he says. "I didn’t know happiness could also feel like this. Like terror."
His voice breaks, and this ti he does not stop it.
"I can’t lose you," he says quietly. "I don’t know how to exist in a world where you’re not here."
Tears fall without sound. He lets them co, his shoulders shaking once before he steadies himself again.
"I’ll sit here as long as it takes," he says. "I don’t care how long. I’m not going anywhere."
He squeezes her hand gently.
"Co back to ," he whispers. "Please."
The machines continue their steady rhythm.
Willow does not wake.
Zane remains.
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