Arik’s mouth flattened.
Amara leaned back against the pillows, exhausted by the laugh, but there was sothing lighter in her face now. Not happiness. Nothing that generous. Recognition, perhaps. Or relief sharp enough to hurt.
"You may be right," she said. "Perhaps you are the future of him. Perhaps that is the only way soone like Goliath could survive himself. Not by returning unchanged, but by becoming soone who can stand in front of his daughter and argue taphysics instead of apologizing."
Arik said nothing.
"But you should make declarations after you rember everything," Amara continued, softer now. "Not before."
The cold inside him returned.
"You think that will happen."
"I know it will."
"Because of your cards?"
"No." Her eyes t his, old and young and terribly awake. "Because you already opened the door. mories are not obedient once they know they are wanted. And even if you do not want them, they will co. Goliath was never very good at asking permission."
Arik’s throat tightened.
For a mont, he slled smoke... Smoke, blood, winter stone, and a child crying sowhere beyond a locked door.
Then it was gone.
Amara watched his face change but didn’t react.
Arik took one asured breath, then another, until the room returned to its proper shape.
"I did not co here to be your father," he said.
"I know," Amara replied.
"And I do not know what I am supposed to feel when I look at you."
Her smile trembled but held. "That is better than pretending."
Arik hated that answer because it was fair.
He looked at the tarot cards again, at the dark cloth, at the fragile woman in the bed who had sohow found enough strength to frighten him with the truth.
Then he finally sat in the chair beside her.
Amara’s gaze dropped to his wrist.
Liam’s mark was still visible.
Sothing in her expression gentled.
"The one waiting," she said.
Arik did not hide the mark.
"Yes."
Amara nodded once, as if so difficult card had finally turned face-up.
"Good," she whispered. "Then perhaps this ti, when the mories co, you will have sowhere to return."
Arik let out a shaking laugh.
"I have more than one place to return, Amara. This ti I have a family, not only blood relatives ready to strip of life and power."
The words lingered between them.
Amara studied him quietly, her gaze moving from his face to the mark on his wrist and back again.
"The one waiting," she said softly. "Does he know?"
Arik already knew what she ant.
"No."
Amara tilted her head slightly.
"Nothing?"
"About Goliath?" Arik asked. "No."
The answer ca too quickly.
He knew it.
Amara knew it too.
For a mont, neither of them spoke.
Amara’s blue eyes were clearer than the day she t Arik, still a little cloudy but a lot better than before.
"And you intend to tell him?"
Arik barked out a humorless laugh.
"If fate decides to be kind to for once, Liam will never find out."
The words sounded harsher aloud, not because he was ashad of Goliath, but because he knew Liam.
Liam would not hear dead emperor, rebirth, soul fragnts, and mories forced through the Ether Core and simply nod like it was an unfortunate engineering complication.
He would ask questions.
Thousands of them.
Questions Arik did not have answers for.
Questions Arik was not certain he wanted answered.
Amara watched him for another mont.
"You love him."
It was not a question.
Arik looked away first.
"That was not the topic."
Amara smiled.
A small victory.
The sort that belonged to daughters.
Arik hated it imdiately and changed the subject. He didn’t want to talk about Liam with people that saw him as Goliath. Despite her best efforts, Amara continued to see him as the dead emperor.
"Fortunately," he said dryly, "your physician is arriving before you recover enough strength to beco truly unbearable."
The smile widened.
"There is a physician?"
"There is."
That, at least, was simpler. He could talk about Marin coming to Alexandria, that he would arrive in two days and would take over the care for those affected by Felix’s poison.
"His na is Marin. He serves the imperial family."
"Serves?"
"He insults us regularly," Arik corrected. "Which, in practice, appears to be the sa thing."
A genuine laugh escaped her this ti.
The sound eased sothing in the room.
"He’s good?" she asked, her voice trembling at the end of the sentence. A clear sign that she was already exhausted, even if she just had talked with Arik.
"Annoyingly so." Arik snorted. The doctor never was one to keep his opinions to himself, and he liked to point out things Arik would rather keep hidden.
"That sounds like praise."
"It is."
Arik leaned back in the chair, one ankle crossing over the other.
"Marin should arrive in two days. He already reviewed everything we recovered from your records. If there is a way to repair so of the damage, he will find it."
Amara was quiet, listening, but clearly not having too much hope for recovery.
"Will it hurt?" she asked eventually.
Arik considered lying.
The impulse lasted less than a second.
"Yes."
She nodded.
"Good."
His brow lifted.
"I am tired of people promising painless miracles," she said. "Pain at least has the decency to be honest."
Sothing in that answer felt painfully familiar.
Not Amara.
Goliath.
Or perhaps the parts of Goliath that had sohow survived long enough to beco Arik.
For a mont, neither of them spoke.
The morning light had begun to strengthen beyond the curtains, turning the room from grey to silver.
Finally, Amara looked at him again.
"When he arrives, tell him I said thank you."
"You can tell him yourself."
A faint smile touched her lips.
"There," she said. "That sounded more like the future than the past."
Arik rolled his eyes.
Amara’s smile widened.
And for the first ti since entering the room, the sight did not feel like a wound.
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