If she still didn’t understand what this sudden coma would bring at this mont, then she was truly slow.
It seed to be as she wished, she heard him say:
"...rembered that night in Sydney."
"The things you said to ."
"Including the things you did to ..."
With each of his words falling.
Gu Yuan’s pupils shook violently, she bit hard on her lower lip, the part caught by her teeth was slightly blue-white, seemingly just a bit more force would make it bleed...
She still didn’t dare to look up at him.
Too timid and weak to face his eyes filled with hatred from being deceived by her.
If there was hatred, that would be okay.
But when it is utterly cold and indifferent, that’s what hurts the most.
Chi Yu took in all of Gu Yuan’s emotional changes at that mont, he saw her panic, avoidance, cowardice, fear, and a trace of regret. He couldn’t help but wonder, was she truly regretful? After forcibly stripping him of his mories and turning him into soone else, did she ever regret it?
No matter how much he called for help, she was unwilling to save him.
She even pushed him into the abyss.
"When I begged you not to send away, did you ever feel a mont of softness?"
She heard him ask.
She could have answered.
However, regardless of her answer, it carried no aning, the things that had been done couldn’t be erased, the harm she caused him was too deep, even if pus was drained and scabs ford, it was still a glaringly obvious scar.
"Gu Yuan, when I begged you again and again, why didn’t you soften?"
"I said even if you don’t love , it’s okay, don’t send away, I don’t want anything, I just want you not to send away, let stay... why didn’t you soften then?"
"I ca to your world because of suicide for you, I attempted suicide twice just because I recklessly wanted to return to your side."
"You see, even if I do it again, I still resolutely co to you."
"But you... Gu Yuan, what have you done to ..."
You pushed into the abyss.
You didn’t save .
Every word Chi Yu had just said echoed clearly in Gu Yuan’s ears, replaying over and over.
At the ti, she didn’t realize.
Now, Gu Yuan suddenly realized what she had done wrong.
Facing Chi Yu in such desperation, how heartlessly she ignored his wishes and pushed him into the abyss. The words she used to convince herself were nothing but grand excuses to justify her actions and ease her conscience. When she realized how frightening she was, she quickly comforted herself that it was all for the future; she stubbornly believed everything she did was right.
But before doing these things, she never considered Chi Yu’s feelings.
Did she ask him what he wanted?
She never asked.
She arbitrarily took everything from him.
Even just a few minutes ago, she hadn’t realized what she had done wrong.
Whether in parallel worlds, this life, or the next, she owed him too much...
"Then do you hate ?" Gu Yuan asked softly. Her nails were almost embedded in her flesh, but at that mont, she felt no pain.
Chi Yu smiled faintly: "If I say I hate you, would you be sad?"
Before Gu Yuan could nod, tears already slipped down, leaving a stark tear mark on her cheek, Chi Yu couldn’t bear to see Gu Yuan cry, such a sight would make him feel he committed an unforgivable mistake that caused her sadness.
He suddenly supported himself up, reaching out with the hand with the oxiter to her cheek, trying hard to wipe away the tear mark: "Don’t cry, Yuanyuan, don’t cry."
Gu Yuan choked out a reply: "Okay."
He said: "Don’t be sad."
Gu Yuan also said: "Okay, not sad."
The tear mark was wiped away, he pulled her into his arms, even though lacking much strength, he used all his strength to embrace her.
"Yuanyuan, I miss you."
"I really miss you."
Gu Yuan felt she could hardly breathe, not because Chi Yu held her too tightly, but because the guilt in her heart was like a huge weight pressing down on her, making it hard for her to breathe.
And Chi Yu feared seeing Gu Yuan frown most, at that mont watching her painful expression made his heart ache dully, the coma made him look like he had been seriously ill, with a sickly pallor and frailty.
His previous words weren’t expressing hatred, but rather all his grievances.
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