Once hed regained his feet, brushed off his robes, and gathered the tattered shreds of his dignity around him like a robe of sha, Sen looked over at the divine spirit beast. The massive turtle gazed at him with a monk-like calm. It seed that Elder Bo was going to wait for Sen to restart the conversation. Sen gave serious thought to simply trying to walk away again but suspected that he wouldnt be allowed to leave until the turtle got his say. Doing his best to pretend that he hadnt just been slapped down like an overactive kitten, Sen looked out over the water.
If you arent going to let leave or kill , can you please just say what you want to say?
Youre still angry.
Can you bla ? Even if I wanted to take vengeance on you, I think you just demonstrated rather decisively how far out of reach that goal is for . Not a lot to celebrate right now.
Was that your plan? To take vengeance?
No, but it did make for a pleasant fantasy.
Ah, said Elder Bo. I see. Ive stolen that fantasy.
Sen shrugged as he tried to feign indifference. I knew it wasnt realistic.
Are you always this disrespectful toward those with more power than you?
Sen didnt need to think about it. Yes. Pretty much without fail.
That strikes as a poorly considered survival strategy. Even the threat of Ming, Jaw-Long, and Caihong wont stop everyone.
I do my best not to lean on their reputations, said Sen with a hollow smile. It turns out that Ive got a reputation of my own to lean on these days. Its mostly smoke and mirrors, but people still believe it. Or they worry enough that it might be true that they dont want to cross .
Freeing you from concerns about retribution. A fine strategy until it fails.
Im not blind to the possibility of retribution or the strategy failing. Clearly, there are things in this world that can kill out of hand. I do worry sotis that so petty bastard will try to get back at by hurting people I care about. I dont worry about soone trying to kill .
Why is that?
Because the worst they can do is kill . Ive faced death before, lots of tis, as both a mortal and a cultivator. Im not in a hurry to die, but its not a prospect that frightens .
Wouldnt it be easier to simply be respectful?
Easier? Sure. Viable? Not at all.
I assu youre respectful to Feng Ming and the others.
Sen gave the turtle a sidelong glance and said, Im respectful to them because they earned it. Day after day, year after year, they earned that respect. They took in, taught , and made a part of their family when there was nothing in it for them. Respect you have to demand from others isnt respect.
Others have worked for their power. That has value. So would say it demands respect by virtue of its existence.
People think lots of stupid things. I respect what power can do, but thats irrelevant to who soone is. Give an entitled, scheming ass the power of a nascent soul cultivator, and theyre still an entitled, scheming ass. Pretending to respect them does nothing but make less. If people want respect, they should act in ways that earn it. Being born into the right family or belonging to a sect or simply possessing power isnt enough.
The spirit beast was quiet for a ti. It must be a fine thing to know the hearts of others at a glance.
Thats a nice trap you set up there, but I didnt claim to know the hearts of others. I cant know the hearts of others. All I can know is what they do. If soone walks up to , tells they belong to a mighty sect, and then gets violently offended when Im not instantly impressed, thats soone who doesnt deserve respect. If soone offers advice under the pretense of wisdom and that advice nearly kills , respect is off the table.
Elder Bo snorted in amusent. A fair point, I suppose.
Is this what you wanted to talk about? asked Sen.
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In part. Your teachers did you a disservice. Refusing to give even the illusion of respect to those who dwarf you in power is not noble, brave, or wise. It is foolhardy.
I thought that for a ti. That one should bend before the storm.
No longer, it seems.
No longer. Ive suffered one heart demon already and nearly caused my own death in a bid to be rid of it. Feigning respect for those I despise would simply give another, and I cant count on a second fortunate encounter to cleanse of its influence. While my power may be nothing next to yours, its more than enough to do a great deal of evil. Another heart demon would send straight down that path. Better by far, I think, to risk my destruction.
Stubborn, muttered Elder Bo.
Sen shrugged. Id be dead long since if I wasnt stubborn. Its not always a bad thing. Besides, isnt acting against ones principles a sure way to end up with qi deviation? Damage your foundation. All that fun stuff.
It is, but most people consider practicality or even just plain pragmatism a principle worth employing at least so of the ti.
The ntion of practicality made Sen smile as it reminded him of Grandmother Lu. So Im told. Practicality is fine. Its a great way to make sure you have enough supplies when you travel. Its useful for business arrangents. I have doubts about using it as a philosophy for guiding your life. But Im a wandering cultivator. Theres nothing practical about that. If I were actually practical, Id have joined a sect. Its safer if nothing else.
What will you do if you manage to reach ascension? Will you treat heavenly beings the sa way? If you find cultivators impatient about your lack of respect, divinities are even less tolerant.
Well, who knows what theyll do when faced with a god? asked Sen as he gave the spirit beast a steady look. But since you bring up ascension, maybe youd like to weigh in on a little theory of mine.
The normally relaxed presence of Elder Bo imdiately shifted into one of discomfort. He watched Sen for long enough that Sen grew nervous. The spirit beast finally spoke.
What theory?
The theory that ascension doesnt take you to the heavens, just so other place thats pretty much exactly like this one. The theory that Im not supposed to be on this plane at all. The theory that soone is interfering with my life to serve so goal of their own.
I think I prefer not to weigh in on any of that.
Seriously? Nothing? How about this? If Im right, dont say anything. Just stand there looking like a giant turtle who isnt happy with .
Very amusing, said Elder Bo.
Fine. Keep the secret. If you wont tell about that, will you at least tell about this Six-Fold Body Transformation?
The turtle thought about it for a lot longer than seed reasonable to Sen, but the spirit beast finally nodded in agreent.
Most cultivators dont flood their bodies with divine qi the way you did until theyre nascent soul cultivators. There are reasons for doing it and reasons for the timing, but most of those reasons dont apply to you. At least, not at present. There are also good reasons not to do it before the nascent soul stage. It can interfere with core formation stage body cultivation techniques. With a little bit of luck, that wont be a problem for you. The main reason not to do it during the core formation stage is that it creates a stronger connection between your body and soul.
That sounds like a good thing, not a bad thing.
Elder Bo sighed. Its not a bad thing if youre connecting it to a powerful nascent soul. It is a bad thing if youre connecting it to a mortal soul. That connection lets your soul lend power to cultivation techniques and other acts of will. Again, not a bad thing on its own, assuming the soul is powerful enough. Mortal souls are seldom powerful enough, which creates issues. I expect youve been feeling tired and even out of place recently.
I have, said a wary Sen.
You did sothing recently to strain your soul. Maybe even crack it.
Sen flashed back to those dreadful monts when he was watching the wave approach the ship. His desperation to make his technique get there in ti was vivid in his mory. He rembered pushing with everything he had. That thought led him to other monts of desperation when hed done things he didnt really think he could pull off. Had he been borrowing against and possibly even damaging his soul in those monts? He was usually in such dire condition afterward that it often ant staying in bed for days and not doing anything strenuous for even longer. Had it been more than just physical damage? Was he waiting around during those tis for his soul to heal? He wanted to dismiss it but feared it was all too plausible. Sen gave Elder Bo an assessing look.
This is what you wanted to talk about, said Sen.
It is, admitted Elder Bo.
What should I do about all of this?
Stop straining your soul, said Elder Bo with exasperation. I thought that part was obvious. You wont have to worry about enemies killing you if you damage your soul too much. Youll do the job for them.
Okay, but how do I know when Im doing that?
Elder Bo paused in thought for a mont. Thats actually a good question.
The spirit beast spent most of an hour trying to help Sen understand how to identify when he was straining his soul. Yet, much to Sens disappointnt, it mostly seed to boil down to a matter of just sensing when it was happening. There were no explicit signs when it was happening and, until Sen beca a nascent soul cultivator, no way to see the damage. Beyond that, all he could do was watch out for the signs that it had happened.
Anything else I should look out for? asked Sen.
Too many things to even na them, said Elder Bo.
That was not reassuring.
If you want reassurance, ask a less fraught question next ti, said the turtle in an amused tone.
Theres going to be a next ti?
If you beco a nascent soul cultivator, I expect well et again.
With that, the divine spirit beast disappeared back into the water of the cove. Sen frowned at the water, feeling deeply unsettled by everything that had happened with the turtle. With a shake of his head, Sen did his best to clear his mind. Hed kept his promise and showed up. Now, it was ti to get back to Falling Leaf and Fu Ruolan.
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