Who would study psychology unless they had some issues?! Chapter 621: 574: She Doesn't Know

Chapter 621: Chapter 574: She Doesn’t Know

The visitor neither denied nor defended.

Her feeling was akin to a sudden realization… no, it cannot be said to be a sudden realization. Because it wasn’t a process of creating sothing from nothing, but rather a feeling that was vaguely sensed before, yet hazy, which now, having been pointed out, cleared up as if clouds had parted.

Faced with the emotion pointed out by Nan Zhubin, she seed to have t a strange old friend.

The visitor’s emotional tone was relatively low because the topic being discussed was profound.

Yet she still tugged at the corner of her mouth: “It’s both painful and relieving, so what kind of emotion is this?”

Uttering this sentence was tantamount to confirming the correctness of Nan Zhubin’s judgnt.

For a non-professional visitor in psychology, a lack of detailed judgnt on emotions is normal, which is why the help of a consultant is needed.

Nan Zhubin provided the answer: “It’s guilt.”

Not just ordinary guilt, but [Survivor’s Guilt].

This is what Nan Zhubin analyzed from Li Lingling’s previous conversation.

Survivor’s Guilt is a common symptom of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). It refers to a person’s belief that surviving a fatal disaster or event was a “mistake” or “unfair,” and feeling deep guilt, self-bla, and pain for the death or injury of others.

People with this emotion will often ruminate over questions like, “Why was it him/her who died instead of ?”, “I could have done sothing to save them.”, “My survival is based on the death of others.”

Psychologically, [Survivor’s Guilt] may lead to severe depression, anxiety, PTSD, substance abuse, suicide, and other risks.

Socially, it could lead to self-social isolation, impaired occupational functioning, unstable relationships, etc.

At the sa ti, long-term internal pain can manifest in the body, leading to chronic pain, sleep disorders, cardiovascular diseases, gastrointestinal issues, immune function problems, etc.

Coincidentally, just a while ago, when Nan Zhubin was helping Bai Qinghua’s research group organize the “Common Disaster Psychological Crisis Intervention Manual,” he had seen the content on [Survivor’s Guilt].

This happens to be the part of the project Bai Qinghua is responsible for emphasizing.

After confirming that Li Lingling has [Survivor’s Guilt], the subsequent problem analysis naturally followed.

Nan Zhubin couldn’t help but recall the previous conversation with Doctor Hu.

…

[“That child is a survivor of a flood disaster. Poor thing, she lost her ho back then.”]

[“…When did it happen?”]

[“In ’98, back when Lingling was just a kid—this is her electronic file, you can view it here, but you can’t take it, and it must remain confidential.”]

[“…Of course. But Doctor Hu, it seems like her situation isn’t recorded in the file, it only contains her education and work history?”]

[“Her personal file certainly wouldn’t record it. I know because our hospital supported Lingling’s hotown at the ti and established relevant dical records.”]

[“…”]

[“This child works hard; despite losing her ho, she’s always faced life optimistically and industriously. She got into Beidu for university and eventually stayed at our hospital as a nurse, helping others just like those who helped her back then… it’s just that no matter how optimistic she is, the events of the past must have had an impact, so I pay a lot of attention to her. The consultation, I’ll have to count on you, Xiao Nan.”]

[“…Of course.”]

…

This shows the professional barrier—contrary to Doctor Hu’s judgnt, Li Lingling is not “optimistic.”

If Nan Zhubin’s judgnt of [Survivor’s Guilt] is accurate, then Li Lingling is actually being “industrious” driven by pain.

And this industriousness itself is also part of the pain she is pursuing.

At the sa ti, because she was enveloped by [Survivor’s Guilt] for a long ti during her childhood, it naturally affected Li Lingling’s social and emotional functions.

However, Li Lingling’s situation was not given attention and was even considered a “good thing” to so extent, so she maintained this state through one of the most crucial stages of personality formation, stabilizing after going through adolescence and early adulthood.

Forming a [Borderline Personality Disorder].

Nan Zhubin’s greatest achievent in today’s consultation, and also the most important task, was letting Li Lingling understand her problem with [Survivor’s Guilt].

This is also typically the task of the first phase of psychological consultation—to collect information.

Not only is it necessary for the consultant to collect the visitor’s information, but the visitor also needs to receive feedback from the consultant about their own information. After clarifying the fundantal issues, further exploration can be pursued based on this foundation.

Thinking about this, Nan Zhubin looked at the visitor in front of him and couldn’t help but sigh once again—this battle was truly abundant.

A typical consultation might take until the second month to reach this extent; however, it was nearly complete after the second consultation this ti.

Fortunately, the hospital was able to help collect data.

…

At this point, when the visitor heard Nan Zhubin ntion the word “guilt,” her facial expression underwent a change.

She first gritted her teeth, seemingly suppressing sothing; but then, realizing that gritting her teeth wasn’t sufficient for self-control, she began to breathe deeply.

She then lost control over her facial expressions, vigorously pressing her lips together, raising and lowering the corners of her mouth.

“Guilt?” she repeated the word that Nan Zhubin had pointed out, then, as if a bit confused, added, “I don’t know… if it counts.”

“Anyway, I just feel that even if I am suffering, it’s… deserved.”

Her self-exploration deepened a layer, shifting from “I should encounter discomfort at work” to “I should suffer.”

Even if this consultation stopped here, it could already be considered a success.

Nan Zhubin nodded and continued: “‘Should’ is a very powerful word. It doesn’t sound like a choice; rather, it is more like… destiny, sothing inherent that has perated our lives for a long ti.”

Nan Zhubin looked into the visitor’s eyes: “Can we try to recall what happened around you and what you were thinking when you first had this notion of ‘should’?”

The consultation ti was nearly exhausted, and the progress was just about adequate. Breaking through this layer would be the formal conclusion of today’s consultation, after which Nan Zhubin would begin wrapping up.

However, the visitor looked up and said, “I… don’t know.”

Nan Zhubin was taken aback.

[Vacant, unfocused eyes—indicating a shift of physical experience to the internal, indeed conducting deep recollection.]

[Lips subtly protruding, edges down—indicative of frustration following a failed attempt.]

[Inner corners of the eyebrows raised, forehead furrowed—these reactions indicate—]

She indeed couldn’t rember anything; she was very confused.