Who would study psychology unless they had some issues?! Chapter 787: 664: The Courage to Face Uncertainty (Part 2)

Capítulo 787: Chapter 664: The Courage to Face Uncertainty (Part 2)

These are all good things.

“It’s quite chaotic. Sotis I feel like I’ve changed a lot. For example, now that I’m rotating in pediatrics, when I encounter a crying child patient, I don’t feel the urge to hide out of irritation like before, nor do I force myself to endure until I break down. But sotis, I still feel like the fog in my heart hasn’t cleared, especially when I dream at night and find myself back on that roof surrounded by floods, unable to see clearly whether my mom was trying to find help or if she really left behind.”

These are all good things.

Nan Zhubin attempted to elaborate a bit more: “Can you be more specific?”

He hoped to understand what exactly Li Lingling was still hesitant about through so specific details.

Li Lingling lowered her eyelids, and shortly after lifted them again: “Specifically… just last night, there was a boy who was afraid of getting an injection, and he cried for almost ten minutes. His mother eventually didn’t want to deal with him. But I stayed with him for those ten minutes and even played a finger ga with him for a while…”

As Li Lingling spoke, she couldn’t help but smile: “In the end, he actually reached out his arm voluntarily. Everything felt very natural and smooth.”

Li Lingling took a deep breath: “At that mont, I suddenly felt that taking care of others wasn’t a ‘task,’ nor was it like I used to think, sothing I had to prove… It was just simple ‘companionship,’ and it’s a job that gives a sense of achievent.”

“… Of course.” Li Lingling laughed, “Maybe after a while, I’ll just see it as part of work. After all, I’ve just started this rotation, so maybe it’s still fresh to .”

A very good response.

In terms of personal inner feelings, Li Lingling has changed dramatically compared to when she first ca for counseling.

At this mont, it seems that Li Lingling’s doubts are not within her daily work life.

Nan Zhubin first offered a “Positive Attention” style summary: “It sounds like you’ve matured quite a lot in ‘accepting yourself’ and ‘confirming your value.'”

This affirmation made Li Lingling smile, her facial lines relaxing naturally.

“But…” her joyful expression quickly paused, then turned into a sort of doubt.

She hesitated for a long ti.

Nan Zhubin raised an eyebrow, intentionally asking back, “But?”

Li Lingling took a deep breath: “But… lately, I might have a new… problem, I guess.”

After starting the conversation, there was no longer any need to hide in the counseling relationship between Li Lingling and Nan Zhubin.

Li Lingling continued naturally: “Teacher Nan, you also know my previous issues. When I was a child… right, I was abandoned by my family.”

Nan Zhubin nodded without speaking.

“I’ve never ntioned this to anyone. On one hand, I feel that bringing it up would still make sad, and I don’t want to feel sad. On the other hand, I think it’s a very private and important matter to . If I just casually share it with others, it feels like… I’m casual and worthless too.”

Nan Zhubin nodded, showing his approval through his actions.

“Later on, I started feeling worse and worse. It might be like the generalization you ntioned, Teacher Nan.” Li Lingling used the psychology knowledge she learned from Nan Zhubin, “Which ans when any topic involving ‘mom’ or ‘abandonnt’ cos up, I would feel uncomfortable.”

“But it was different in the disaster area.” Li Lingling suddenly looked up and t Nan Zhubin’s eyes, “I talked to Niannian about my issues, as if telling a story; and I talked to Niannian’s mother too, that was self-exposure… Teacher Nan, do you still rember Niannian and Niannian’s mother?”

Nan Zhubin nodded: “Of course I rember.”

In venting, a seemingly related but actually abrupt issue often arises, which is a subconscious buffer for the one venting.

Nan Zhubin’s response was short, not expanding on the topic of “rembering Niannian and Niannian’s mother,” like what impression he had of them.

It simply gave Li Lingling enough ti to buffer, preventing the topic from veering off course.

Li Lingling quickly cleared her throat, picked up the water cup on the coffee table for a sip, then clenched her fingers subconsciously: “When I talked to them about those topics, I felt very different.”

“At first, when I told Niannian ‘Mothers won’t abandon their children,’ I was just saying it to comfort her, but actually, I didn’t believe it myself.”

“And I had to tell her every day, by the end… I felt my emotions had changed.” Li Lingling picked up the cup and took another sip, “I felt… I was becoming more and more certain about it.”

Nan Zhubin slightly leaned forward, revealing a puzzled expression.

“It’s just… at first, I thought I had grown up, moved on… but later I realized maybe it wasn’t like that,” Li Lingling said.

Her speech rate sped up: “Then when I was counseling Niannian’s mother, I said things like ‘all mothers love their daughters,’ just to provide her support… But the more I said it, the weirder I felt.”

“I taught them to fold paper boats, saying they could feel emotional connection through this action… After finishing their intervention, I secretly folded one for myself too…”

Nan Zhubin raised an eyebrow.

Li Lingling took a deep breath: “I feel… sothing’s off, Teacher Nan. Either my thoughts are off, or… my mories are off!”

“Lately, I’ve started dreaming again, dreaming of the rooftop, the flood reaching my feet, icy cold.”

“I feel like I even dread of my mother’s back… though I’ve already forgotten what she looks like.”

Li Lingling picked up the cup, trying to drink again, only to realize she had finished the warm water.

She simply placed the cup back on the coffee table with a “bang” and didn’t look at it again. With this action, it seed she had made so kind of decision in her heart.

“Teacher Nan.” Li Lingling’s body leaned slightly forward, “Didn’t we undergo hypnosis before? You said my dreams reflect my subconscious, and the water, the hallway, the lost dical records in them are all unresolved issues in my heart.”

Li Lingling swallowed, her voice trembling slightly, “But lately, I’ve started to wonder if the belief I’ve always held that I was ‘abandoned by my mother’… is it true? Could it be that, like Niannian’s mother, she was separated from because of so unavoidable circumstance?”

…

Nan Zhubin nodded thoughtfully.

“Before you ca today, you asked Mo Kai if we would conduct hypnosis today — I responded that it would depend on the situation.”

Nan Zhubin took out his phone and scrolled through the chat records Mo Kai forwarded to him: “The reason you asked that at the ti was because of this matter, right?”

Actually, Nan Zhubin and Li Lingling now had private contact information, but when it cos to counseling, Mo Kai acts as the interdiary, which also serves as a record of the session.

And in the communication between Li Lingling and Mo Kai, she had indeed ntioned wanting to conduct hypnosis today.

“You rembered what I told you before about hypnosis being able to help recover things forgotten by the subconscious, right?”

Li Lingling nodded: “I want to ‘see’ a bit more clearly because when everything happened, I was still very young. But…”

Li Lingling suddenly shrank back: “I’m also a bit scared of knowing the answer, so when I first ca today, I didn’t have the courage to say it directly…”

Looking at Li Lingling’s appearance.

Nan Zhubin smiled.

He understood what Li Lingling’s issue was today.

“You’re not seeking a definite ‘yes or no’ answer.”

Nan Zhubin looked at Li Lingling: “You’re seeking the courage to face uncertainty.”