In fact, Gu Shaocheng was no better than him, his heart troubled to the point where his whole being was shrouded in a layer of intense anger, an anger not directed at others, but at himself!
After all these years, he hadn’t even noticed Hua Hua’s thoughts!
It wasn’t exactly without traces; it’s just that he had never thought about it that way.
Ti pauses at this second;
The scene freezes at this mont!
The hundred-square-ter rooftop swimming pool was lavishly decorated, with dim lights, slightly cold.
This cold was unlike the piercing chill of winter, nor the lingering cool of sumr, but sowhere in between, making one’s heart fluctuate, elusive, softly penetrating the heart.
Like so wounds that one doesn’t know how to handle!
In the green waters, the slender and thin Hua Hua stood still, bowing his head in the pool;
The tall and upright Gu Shaocheng sat at the pool’s edge, eyes squinting tightly, the whole world cast in a thin layer of fog, forming an inharmonious yet unbreakable stalemate.
"When did it start?"
Gu Shaocheng took a deep breath, breaking the stalemate by force.
Hua Hua’s back trembled slightly, he couldn’t see his face, but he could feel the delicate pain all over him.
"I’m asking you when it started!" Gu Shaocheng’s voice deepened, unable to hide the emotions within.
Bitterness, sourness, burrowed into his heart all at once, Hua Hua didn’t know how to answer.
He remained unmoving, silently resisting so kind of confession.
Gu Shaocheng snapped: "Can’t hear ?"
After a while, the sound of rippling water ca, Hua Hua wiped the corner of his eye forcefully, then turned around, his eyes already dry, he tried hard to pretend everything was fine, in an instant, he had tidied up most of his wandering struggling thoughts.
His steps, incomparably heavy.
Step by step, he walked towards Gu Shaocheng.
With each step, it seed like the distance between them widened.
This distance was not physical, but of the heart.
Hua Hua realized that, invisibly, sothing was pulling him and his brother apart, is this the distance people speak of—so close, yet so far?
With a bitter smile, nothing could change this constantly widening distance, is it really hopeless?
Reality was too cruel, he didn’t understand why it beca like this, his heart was so tired!
A feeling, once possessed, he cherished greatly; yet this feeling turned into loss and tornt as he drew closer step by step.
In the end, he arrived beside Gu Shaocheng, climbed ashore himself, sitting dejectedly side by side.
When did it start, how to answer this question, even he wasn’t very clear, so feelings are like dandelions, dispersing with the wind, and the wind is everywhere; when you discover it, the dandelion has already taken root and sprouted in your heart, flourishing and growing, occupying your whole heart, how do you uproot it? Along with the bone and muscle...
"I don’t know either, it’s been a long, long ti. By the ti I realized, it should... should be when you taught to rely on sexual fantasies to release my body." Hua Hua felt his head burning hot, his body stiff like wood, saying such things made him extrely uncomfortable, awkward and bewildered: "I discovered that when I fantasized about you, I could... could ejaculate. Other tis, it didn’t work."
Every young man experiences a transformation, during which the body is naive, and so is the mind, even when discovering those unspoken secrets, it is full of confusion and excitent, like little secrets.
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