A pot of white pepper old duck soup, accompanied by a few refreshing side dishes, plus a basket of spring pancakes.
A simple dinner filled them up.
Shi Wangyue had experienced countless rainy days stuck in traffic after work, but none felt like today, as if he could see ripples left by the continuous excitent in his cerebral cortex, like raindrops falling on a lake, dripping with a bit of joy and happiness.
——This is a very magical experience.
...
As they left the pancake shop, a gust of wind made Ning Youguang shiver with cold.
Shi Wangyue imdiately opened his coat and wrapped her in his embrace.
He held a large black umbrella.
Creating a private space for the two of them.
Ning Youguang looked up at him and smiled, her eyes curved, "Do people in love all act foolishly?"
"Where’s the foolishness?" Shi Wangyue laughed.
"It’s not foolish, in this kind of rotten weather, how can I feel like maybe going for a walk together isn’t such a bad idea..."
Shi Wangyue laughed out loud, "Do you want to go for a walk?"
He actually hoped they could walk a little longer, make the road a little longer.
"Maybe not..." Ning Youguang hesitated.
...
Today’s case consultation topic was set by Xia Fanxing.
He wanted to tell Teacher Ning about his family story.
"I often couldn’t see my dad; when I was young I was mostly with the nanny and mom. But my mom was always busy, so I was mostly alone," Xia Fanxing said.
"... My grandfather, uncle, and dad were the sa, always liked to lecture . When I was young, they would take to the company to play. The people there called ’little boss,’ and my grandfather told the staff ’this is your future chairman.’ I instinctively disliked being called that."
"Why?" Ning Youguang asked.
"Because back then I felt I didn’t like working there."
"Why?"
"I was really scared of working with my grandfather and dad. Our family company was quite big. I rember many provincial and city leaders would co to inspect it. Now, I haven’t seen such impressive scenes for a long ti." Xia Fanxing wiped his eyes.
"When Dad was there, I studied hard, interned at the company diligently, worked seriously, and tried hard to bear the responsibility of being the heir. But I felt I was always in their shadow. I had to do everything I could to prove my ability, yet Dad still didn’t recognize or was satisfied with . So every ti I went to the company or went to work, I felt like I was going to an execution ground, it was that painful."
"What about Mom?"
"Mom was very gentle. Sotis she’d see dejected or in a bad mood and comfort , but if Dad found out, he’d say she spoiled . Later she didn’t dare comfort anymore. Every ti she’d get rebuked by Dad, her cautious expression made feel guilty. I thought if I did better, Mom wouldn’t have to struggle like this. Up until now, I still often rember how she got scolded because of , and frequently feel stomach pains."
Xia Fanxing touched his stomach, "I have nodules here and there. Went to the hospital for scans, didn’t find tumors or polyps, but I can feel them very clearly, they’re really hard."
This was the first ti he talked to Ning Youguang about his physical issues.
Ning Youguang’s face remained calm, though internally slightly surprised.
"Can I take a look?"
"Sure," Xia Fanxing thought for a mont and said.
He took off his down jacket and lifted his sweater, "You might not be able to see." He reminded.
"I’ll try to feel it," Ning Youguang said.
"Okay." Xia Fanxing lowered his head, a bit embarrassed.
Ning Youguang reached out to feel his stomach, "Relax, take deep breaths."
Xia Fanxing said it’s okay to touch, but his body was tense.
Under Ning Youguang’s guidance, he attempted a few breaths, yet Ning Youguang realized he couldn’t even do deep breathing.
"Are you often tense?" She paused.
"Tense? Not really..." Xia Fanxing slightly frowned, "These years being alone at ho, not much tension."
"So you used to be tense?" Ning Youguang said.
"Sotis," Xia Fanxing nodded, "Occasionally, my body would uncontrollably shiver."
Ning Youguang nodded, "I’ll send you two audio files later. Go ho and ditate, do one audio continuously for 21 days, following the recordings, then give feedback."
"Okay, thank you, Teacher Ning."
"Your stomach does have many nodules," Ning Youguang said, "They’re qi knots."
"Really?" Xia Fanxing felt troubled, "I used to think it was indigestion. Ate a lot of digestion-aiding foods, none worked."
Ning Youguang said, "Those are all accumulated due to emotional problems, food can’t solve it."
"Do you often feel like you can’t eat?"
"Yes." Xia Fanxing said, "Feels like my stomach is bloated, once bloated, I don’t want to eat, and thus I beco this skinny ghostly form."
He tried to smile, but it was a bit awkward.
"You don’t like your current body?" Ning Youguang asked.
"No, not really," Xia Fanxing said, "I wish I were a bit chubbier, but since coming here, it’s been much better than before."
"You did gain so weight," Ning Youguang said, "Do you know what kind of emotions are causing the nodules in your stomach?"
"What kind of emotions?" Xia Fanxing asked curiously.
"Anger," Ning Youguang said.
"Anger?" Xia Fanxing looked puzzled, "I haven’t been angry for a long ti, I’m not an angry person."
"You do appear like a reasonably easygoing person," Ning Youguang said, "But your internal and external selves are conflicting. There’s a stern part in your personality, and this anger doesn’t co from the outside but from inner self-attack. You have quite so dissatisfaction with yourself."
Xia Fanxing thought for a mont, "Actually, I don’t want to be like this now, but sort of enjoy being like this."
"I see." Ning Youguang continued asking, "What’s your mother’s family like?"
"My grandfather was a university president. When I was young, I admired him a lot. He rides horses really well and often took horseback riding. Once, he took to Hulun Bei’er Grassland to ride, I was too excited, fell in love with riding horses, and thought it’s the thing I most love to do."
"Most loved thing to do?" Ning Youguang smiled.
Xia Fanxing nodded with joy all over his face.
"Great," Ning Youguang said, "How was your school experience?"
"School?" Xia Fanxing said, "My entire school experience from childhood?"
"Yes."
"Kindergarten is a bit blurry, but elentary school onward is clear."
"Tell as much as you rember."1314
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