Liang Yiyi fell into silence.
Ning Youguang continued to ask, "When you interact with your husband, are there tis when you feel his opinions are wrong, but over ti, you co to believe he’s right? Because as long as you think he is right, he approves of you. You can’t deny him, because once you do, there will definitely be conflicts between you?"
Liang Yiyi nodded, "Yes, only when I comply with him do we avoid argunts."
"May I ask you a few questions?"
"Go ahead."
"Does your husband often subject you to cold violence?"
"Whenever he’s unhappy, yes."
"Does he often or periodically lose his temper?"
"He has quite a temper, and I feel very scared."
"Are there any places you’re afraid to go?"
"There used to be, but it’s much better now."
"Which places?"
"Social gatherings, but now I don’t like going out, so it doesn’t happen anymore..."
The more Liang Yiyi spoke, the clearer her thoughts beca, "It seems like it’s not just that. In life, like eating, dressing, speaking, etc., whenever I touch on areas he doesn’t like or accept, he shows a very cold and terrifying side. Now I generally don’t dare touch his sensitive areas."
"Does he often threaten to leave you if you make him unhappy? Or does he imply that he will leave?"
"Yes, he often says, ’If you keep this up, we might not be able to continue living together.’ Sotis he also says, ’Let’s divorce!’"
"Does he mock you?"
"In a joking way, does that count?"
"Of course, so mockery, whether in jest or not, if he says it, it ans he has thought about it."
"Then yes, many tis."
"After being with him, are there things you’re afraid of?"
"Yes, I’m very afraid we might get divorced. I’m afraid he doesn’t think I’m the woman he likes, and I’m also scared he might fall for soone else. I often have nightmares, and I can’t help but feel afraid when I think of these things. In my dreams, I see images of him having an affair, and I go mad. It takes a long ti to recover after waking up."
The atmosphere in the hotel room gradually grew heavy as they continued to converse.
Ning Youguang looked into Liang Yiyi’s gradually calming eyes and asked her, "Do you realize your husband is ntally manipulating you?"
Liang Yiyi remained motionless, as if frozen in place.
After a long ti, she turned to look at her daughter and saw tears in her daughter’s eyes, which made her own tears flow as well.
"Before I ca, Lele had done a lot of research for ." She looked at her daughter and said, "She also showed a lot of related information."
"Otherwise, I wouldn’t have co." She didn’t cry, but tears continued to stream down.
At the sa ti, a stubborn strength surfaced in her eyes.
She wiped the tears from her face, which continued to fall and get wiped away, again and again...
"I feel very lonely at ho."
She said, "Before I ca this ti, my gastritis flared up, and the pain was unbearable. I asked my husband not to go on a business trip. I begged him to co with to the hospital, but he left without looking back, pulling his suitcase. He said when my gastritis flares up, I shouldn’t look for him but should go to the hospital, find a doctor, and he said it was because of my poor eating habits that my stomach got worse, and that it’s my problem, now that it has flared up, I should learn from it."
"I lay on the bed, watching his departing figure, and suddenly I felt calm. I thought, ’If I died, would he say it’s my problem so coldly?’"
Her face showed a numbness of heart-dead hopelessness, "I’m embarrassed to tell my friends, I’m afraid if I tell them, they’ll make fun of ."
She asked Ning Youguang, "Dr. Ning, do you know what else he said?"
Ning Youguang shook his head.
Liang Yiyi showed a sarcastic smile, "He said I shouldn’t tell him these things early in the morning, knowing he’s going on a business trip, and that I’m ruining his mood!"
"I suddenly realized he actually didn’t love." Liang Yiyi said, "I was wrong, I don’t want it anymore, I don’t want to love anymore, and I don’t want to expect anything anymore!"
"I’ve been hoping for over a decade..." Her voice was hoarse as she said, "I’ve hoped he could understand , tolerate , but the fact is I keep compromising and tolerating him."
"I can’t find myself anymore." Her emotions completely broke down.
Liang Yiyi buried her head in her knees, curled up like a baby, trembling as she cried, "I can’t rember what I used to be like."
"I’m afraid to look in the mirror now, afraid to see my own face."
"I feel like I’m a ghost at ho, a spirit, a puppet doll, everything but a human..."
She slowly lifted her head, "I used to always wonder, why did I beco like this? Why did my life turn out this way? I always felt sothing was wrong, but couldn’t find the reason."
—"Until New Year, Lele left a book on my bedside." She said, "When I finished reading it, I realized for all these years, I was being manipulated by him like a puppet."
Ning Youguang quietly watched as Liang Yiyi’s sobs gradually subsided, then softly asked, "Have you been ntally preparing yourself these past few months?"
Many tis, people who co to see a counselor already have the answer in their hearts before stepping into a therapist’s office.
They co just to find an expert or authority to confirm that their decision is correct.
Ever since Liang Yule talked to her during Spring Festival, she frequently reported her mother’s state to her and shared so of her mother’s issues.
So, this ti, upon learning that Liang Yiyi had co to the capital, she already guessed that she probably understood her situation.1314
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