Wu ngting’s sudden attack indeed caught Chen Feng off guard.
In his heart, at least for now, he wasn’t willing to completely cut ties with other won, and it’d probably be the sa two years from now.
As for marrying her, he didn’t have any desire for that now, and whether he’d have such a desire two years later was also uncertain.
But one thing was certain, he was very reluctant to get engaged to her by the end of the year.
Facing Wu ngting’s persistent gaze, Chen Feng sighed inwardly and finally said, "I can’t give you any promises about things two years from now. In fact, I haven’t even moved on from my first failed marriage, so I’m sowhat resistant to the idea of us getting engaged by the end of the year."
As soon as Chen Feng said this, Wu ngting’s expression changed, tears imdiately filled her beautiful eyes, but her gaze still focused on Chen Feng, stubbornly.
Seeing her like this, Chen Feng felt a twinge of heartache, but he still held back.
He didn’t want to lose his current freedom nor did he want to let the reins of marriage bind his life again.
So, he needed to harden his heart like iron.
"Don’t be like this, I know it hurts you to hear these words, but I don’t want to deceive you. If I irresponsibly just settled down with you, it would be very unfair to you."
Wu ngting still didn’t say anything, just stared at Chen Feng, with tears already streaking her face.
Chen Feng felt another pang of heartache but again, he endured it.
However, he eventually looked away, pulled a tissue from the coffee table, and wiped her face, drying her tears, though new ones quickly followed.
Chen Feng had to wipe them again, then handed her another tissue, not looking at her eyes anymore, he said, "I know this isn’t fair to you, but right now I’m just a playboy, not worth your wholehearted devotion."
"How many tis do I need to say it?" Wu ngting suddenly spoke, her voice hoarse and choked, yet exceptionally calm and firm, "I just want to be with you, marry you, and not leave myself with regrets before you possibly die. I don’t need you to be good for or be scared of hurting , I don’t need that, do you understand? I also don’t need you to think I’m not worth it, I just need to feel it’s worth it for myself."
Chen Feng was at a loss for words after her retort.
It was like a little white rabbit running headlong into a big gray wolf, begging to be eaten, but the wolf, being hypocritical, claid to have other things to eat and refused.
The whole scene seed off, the rabbit and the wolf both seed strange.
"Alright, let’s stop here for today, we can slow down and talk again tomorrow."
Chen Feng, fearing he couldn’t resist Wu ngting’s offensive, wisely chose to retreat.
After speaking, he stood up and went upstairs.
Wu ngting watched his back, her face still marked with tears, but her heart was exceptionally calm.
Still holding the tissue Chen Feng had handed her, she only used it to gently wipe away her tears after he went upstairs.
At first, upon hearing Chen Feng’s words, she was indeed very saddened, but she quickly suppressed those negative emotions.
Actually, two or three months ago, she had already noticed Chen Feng was deliberately avoiding her, subtly putting distance between them.
Thus, she naturally realized Chen Feng’s intention to distance himself, so she was sowhat prepared for him not wanting to fulfill promises or establish a formal romantic relationship.
Noticing this change, she went through their parents’ route, simply letting Chen Feng’s parents pressure him into getting engaged by the end of the year.
Without a doubt, this was a risky move. If successful, she could beco Chen Feng’s fiancée by year-end, possibly even marry him directly.
If it failed, just like earlier, Chen Feng would practically co clean with her, clearly telling her he didn’t want to marry her, not now and possibly not in two years either.
For this kind of outco, Wu ngting already had a ntal contingency plan, so even though it was really heartbreaking earlier, it was still within her expectations, nothing she couldn’t bear or endure.
The one saving grace was that Chen Feng hadn’t completely shut her down or refused her completely, leaving so room for negotiation.
Perhaps, she could only apply delay tactics now. Set aside engagent and marriage, the priority was to first establish a romantic relationship between them.
She must not let the efforts go to waste like last ti, turning from lovers into siblings suddenly.
...
Upstairs, Chen Feng first took a shower, then ca out only wearing shorts, lying sprawled on the bed, motionless.
He still couldn’t completely harden his heart against Wu ngting, her tears and sadness affected him.
Luckily, sensing sothing was off earlier, he used his escape technique and slipped away.
Honestly, he did have a favorable impression of Wu ngting; he still believed she was the most suitable choice for a wife among all his won.
The key reason was not only that his mother was fond of her, but even if Chen Feng had to choose his favorite, it would certainly be Wu ngting.
Despite the pressure Wu ngting put on him and so things she did that irked him, it was hard to change this fact.
n are strange like that; a woman might accommodate and endure everything for you, never leaving even under abuse, yet the man might still not favor her most, or even dislike her.
The woman whom you fear, respect, and avoid might very well be the one you like the most.
Sun Xiaorui was the most obedient of all Chen Feng’s won, and he liked her quite a bit, but that affection surely ca after Wu ngting.
Yet Wu ngting was the woman he liked the most, but oddly enough, he still couldn’t abandon other won for her sake.
This could only an he didn’t truly love her, or at least not deeply enough.
Chen Feng didn’t deny this, otherwise, he wouldn’t be thinking about how to decline the agreent with Wu ngting tactfully.
He not only didn’t want to get engaged to Wu ngting by the end of the year, but he also didn’t want to officially start dating her this month.
Yet it’s a difficult matter, he couldn’t just break up with Wu ngting outright; he still wanted to maintain a certain level of intimacy with her.
Not just because he still had a good impression of Wu ngting, but also because Wu ngting was now the second-in-command at Fengmang Film and Television Company and the producer of hit dramas.
Most importantly, Chen Feng was already used to having Wu ngting, with her beauty and brains, by his side.
He surely couldn’t bear to let Wu ngting just leave like that.
Thus, even he felt he was a jerk, hesitant to let go of Wu ngting, while unwilling to advance further with her, fearing she might trap him.
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