Lord Shadow Chapter 1687: Tangled



Sitting in complete Stillness and as he sits there, he begins to see things. Thing he never see before.

Insisting on seeking his Grand Path, forcing it, is like looking at a reflection of a flower on the surface of water.

When you grabbed it, you are grabbing the air.

Just be calm and let natura take its course.

Ti is also fate.

Ti is also destiny.

He had to defy it, but he also have to learn when to use it. When everything is satisfied, then the enlightennt will co.

And Azief clearly has satisfied so of its requirent

"It's everywhere" he mutters to himself

He look at the area around him but his mind is thinking about many things. Things of the past.

Years and years ago. The Fall. The first death he saw. The zombies. He even rember his pet Badger.

He never took another pet since then. He knows that there is so that have Beast master ability and taming pet.

The most famous one is of course Boris.

But he never took a pet since then.

He did not think that he could protect his pet at the sa ti trying to survive.

This has sothing to do with what happened before the Fall

"Is that also a shackle?" he thought to himself. He never examine this part of him. But, there must be sothing hidden in his heart

Because since the death of that pet of his, even though he is now the world feared Death Monarch, he still did not take a pet.

"What stopped ?" he ask himself and he must answer it. This kind of state that he is in, does not allow lies.

You could lie to the world, you could give any reason to the world, you could war a thousand mask to show to the world but you must not lie to yourself

Because lying to yourself is the act of killing yourself. And killing yourself is the act of not knowing yourself.

If you did not even know what you want, what you desire, what makes you fear, what makes you "you" then how could you ever reach the point where you could know your own path?

Know yourself.

And so, you would know your destiny.

And knowing yourself, you would know where to tread, where to walk, where to run and where is the path that you wanted to reach.

"Why?" he ask again and this ti he answers

"Because I don't want to be responsible. I don't want to be in pain. I don't want to be blad. I don't want to shoulder such heavy burden. The more attached I am, the more I bla myself" Azief thought all of this and he felt like sothing heavy is lifted out of his heart. He is honest to himself.

And the mont he decided to beco honest to himself, old mories co rushing into his mind.

He rember there is a family of cat that usually roams around his house.

He likes cat.

He likes animals.

But he never bough any cat food.

Nor did he the cats any food.

Because the food in the house is not his to take. His family situation is quite weird. And it is not exactly amiable.

He and his mother did not talk for a long ti.

And he is ostracized by his own family.

If there is only one person in the family that he could talk to, it is his father.

But there is also a bit of resentnt there.

He has no money and the food is enough only for him. That....is the excuse he make for himself.

The truth was that he feared that once he gave food to these cats, he would get attached to it. And if he could not provide for these cats, he would feel very guilty.

So, he prefer not to start at all.

And that is probably the sa kind of ntality when he no longer took any pet after Badger.

It is sothing that he is ashad of. He wanted to be kind. He wanted to be good. But he himself knows that he is not that kind. Nor is he that good.

There is this choice that he has to make every day. Always floundering between wanting to be generous and being sailfish.

His ntality is that if he could not bring it to an end, it is better not to start at all. And it is also like that with other things in his life.

If he could see the end, and if the end is not good, then it is better not to start at all.

Of course, after the Fall, Azie learns and grows from this kind of ntality. Before, he thought that if he could not do it until the end he better not start. But later, he thought to himself that, one act of kindness is better even if you could not bring it to the end.

At least... you try. And that is what matters. You tried. Nothing could be achieved by doing

nothing.

Do sothing. And hopefully there would be changes. And if not......at least you try. And maybe that is the only thing you could do in life.

Try. Do sothing. Fight for sothing. Stand for sothing. Find sothing. And if what you find is wrong, then seek again. Seek and seek until you find the right answer.

And at that ti, you could believe that you have lived a life worth living

And then, the image of Badger appears in his mind again

"I feel sorry for you. And I fear that if I find another pet, I would feel sorry for them again. I fear....that I would get attached. And attachnt....is a scary thing" he mutters to himself Most animals that he could control now are mostly demonic animals and they are more like contracted beings than a pet so Azief is not that worried that those animals would die. But that is not the only thing he tries to rember. He rembers his eting with Sofia.

With Loki. With Sina.

With all the people he had t before.

Na Eun. Harrison.

And the mories that co rushing into his mind is like a dream.

It felt like a handed of years had passed.

He rembers the years when he was at that other world, becoming sothing like a

superhero.

Harrison, Catherine

He rembers how he get a fragnt of the All Source

He rembers the battle.

He rembers the six sabers. He rembers Azul. He rembers ihul, the woman Azul

loved.

Of course, most of the mories of the six sabers that he had experienced is slowly fading away. Sotis, he would even mix up the mory or make up new things that did not happen during the journey.

He rembers Xi Feng. He rembers that world and his other disciple that he had left in

that world of five elents. A world sealed in a palm

And he rembers what happens to the world when he returns back.

He rembers the Weronaic Occupation, he rembers that Werfeonian warrior,

Purunghasa.

He rembers the spear that cut off his life and nearly killed him. He rembers Katarina sacrifice, enchasing him in a mountain of ice.

More and more mories seems to be rushing back to him. So of these mories are mories that he wanted to forget. So of these mories are mories that he wanted to

keep.

So he wanted to discard. But all of it seems to be revealing itself to him.

Like he had opened a Pandora box and nothing could be stored inside it any longer. And then

The look at himself again.

Look at the threads, the connection, the bonds that seems to transcend space and ti. He could feel the tug of destiny and fate that reverberates in each thread and each connection

Karma. Cause and effect.

The threads are so tangled that cause and effect is hard to distinguish and who owes whom is

even harder to differentiate.

"It's everywhere" he mutters again

And as he sat there, looking at the droplets of rain, reminiscing old mories, he could not

help but think of all these people that he t.

So are strongly in his mind and in his heart, so are on the corner of his mories and on

the corner of his heart but all of these encounters in the past right now is dug up by his

mories.

But each one is connected to his fate and destiny.

Whether it is bad or good, it shapes him, and move him forward to his own path.

The people he et shapes him just as he eting them shapes their fate and destiny

So people who t him is enriched by the encounter.

So are fortunate. So are poorer because they t him and so beco unfortunate.

So live because of him and so dies because of him

And just as him eting this people affect their destiny and fate, these people eting him

also affect his destiny and fate.

He thought of his eting with Azul. That is a huge cause and effect. eting the Creator. The

Orvans.

The Etherna. More and more cause and effect. More and more Karma.

Tangled, connected. ssy.

All of this is cause and effect.

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