When you said you decided to leave and leave alone, I cried, I was sad. When you turned away, my tears flowed like a river, my heart was really sad, but I had no way at all. I just want to ask you if you really loved .
Perhaps for myself, the best ending is nothing more than having them stay by my side again and again, giving up their long-term ideals to pursue for my sake. Sotis I can’t even understand why I have to live so selfishly. Living selfishly has ultimately brought nothing but pain again and again. My family has never considered whether these things are right or wrong from my perspective.
"Grandpa, today I want to express my inner thoughts to you. No matter when or where, don’t easily trust anyone, even your own family; they might still deceive you. In his eyes, he only can deceive you, and he feels happy because that’s his ability. He can take our care as deception, again and again.
Actually, you should understand my deep inner thoughts at this mont. They are my parents, and this ti they deceived again. In their hearts, what exactly am I as their son? They can easily consider their love for as deceit. They think deceiving is a kind of care, but is that really what I want? Ultimately, all of that is not what I want. What I want is just to have my family stay by my side, and for my parents to always give the most sincere care.
But look at what I have beco today. I have reached this point step by step, and I have gained nothing. I almost gave up everything I could for my parents to return to this ho, and still, I couldn’t gain a mont of genuine treatnt from them. They only deceive . In their hearts, maybe deceiving has beco commonplace, and they don’t care about the harm they’ve caused . But what about ? I care because I have feelings for them. I consider all my happiness and joy as a kind of care for them. I love them because they are my parents, because their existence gave life and today’s achievents, even if these achievents were made by myself and have nothing to do with them. They haven’t given any help, but if it weren’t for them giving life, how could I possibly have today’s achievents?
So things are painful; I can only endure all the suffering, not hoping others can offer a different path. He can’t help you, even if you regard it as more important than your life. But in his eyes, you might be nothing. Don’t easily hand over your heart to others, and don’t easily trust soone who doesn’t deserve it. He might be a con artist, with only deception in his eyes, no sincerity."
How could Old Master Zhang not know that his grandson spoke these words for his parents to hear? He hoped so much that his parents could stay by his side. He gave everything, yet in his parents’ eyes, he was nothing. In their hearts, he didn’t exist, and all the pain and harm beca the most common things. He always thought everything he did was right, but was it really right to hurt the ones closest to him, to drive himself into a corner again and again, leaving no room to retreat, forcing himself onto a dead-end, ultimately gaining nothing but leaving himself with an eternal bad na.
How could Zhang Zhentian not know what his son’s words ant? But he really had no way to abandon his wife, to leave alone; that would be a disgrace to him. What he wanted was just for his wife to live happily. Even if in this lifeti he can’t give her the most loyal care, he still wants to stay by her side, never changing his view of her, no matter where he goes, always considering her as the most important person in his life.
"I know I have wronged you, that I have failed your trust in , but have you really thought it through? If I choose to leave my wife here, if I live alone here, let her leave alone, do you think there is any difference between and a beast? If I can abandon my partner, what else could I not do? Many tis, I wish you could sympathize with my efforts. It hasn’t been easy for to get where I am today, through my hard work step by step. I have no regrets with what I’ve done; I haven’t wronged anyone, except you.
Maybe my thoughts are too naive, or maybe my desires for what I wanted in this life were too excessive, which has turned everything into what it is now. How difficult every step of the way has been, who has truly stood in my shoes to consider my situation? Who knows how hard it was to make it this far? You’ve always thought that what you gave was the best, but the fact is, isn’t it just for your own selfish desires, thinking of making stay here? Did you consider whether I wanted to stay here, whether I truly wanted to continue here?
I just want to peacefully be with my wife. Where she is, I am; in the ho where she is ho, I can endure all grievances and pain for her, and she can do the sa, as long as she is willing. I can disregard everything, but if she wants to leave this ho, there’s no reason for to stay. I regard her as the most important woman. If she leaves, what is my reason to stay, to suffer harm again and again? No, I don’t want that. I want to follow her in life and death!"
There’s no escaping, no avoiding; the more you try to forget this baseless storm, the deeper it etches into your heart. You desperately rember knowing the night is long and dreams are fraught, but still, you cannot escape all this, the arrogant heart demon, the more reluctant you are, the more tornt you will endure.
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