"So you’ve always thought that I chose to be with you for the money, that you don’t understand at all. What I really want isn’t like that. I just wanted to live with the man I love the most. The mont I reached my ideal goal and married the man I love most, I realized I was content with my life!
But to you, perhaps you don’t think it’s a big deal, or maybe you don’t even know. Yet to , it’s a huge deal. I can put up with you ignoring over and over again. I can bear your suspicions ti and again. I can handle it when you’re almost never there when I need you. But I can’t endure being wronged repeatedly, you not even willing to offer the basic trust I deserve.
Over the years, to outsiders, we seem the perfect couple, full of love. But how exactly do you treat ? Don’t you have any idea in your heart? No matter how much I try to please you, you always just go through the motions, smiling at . Do you know that sotis it really breaks my heart? I feel like such a failure. Why is it that when I treat the person I love with all sincerity, I end up with this result? Why can’t the man I love sincerely tell he loves just once?
I can no longer tell which of your words are true and which are false. I really don’t ask for much. I’m practically begging you, please, don’t keep depriving of my right to happiness. I just want to be with you. For you, I’ve changed so, so much, only to realize that no matter what I do, I’ll never be good enough for you. You’ll always be just out of reach because your education is different from mine, your background is different from mine, everything about you is different. Our views on life, our values, our ideals—everything’s different. Do you realize it’s these differences that make follow your lead? I’ve been changing my outlook on life and my values to match yours.
Do all these changes really an so little to you? Do you think I should be naturally subservient, that you, born to be placed high on a pedestal, an I as your wife am destined to be trodden underfoot, never to rise again?
Yichen, I no longer have any way to be sure what you think of us. Your indifference towards is sotis enough to break . I don’t know what to do or how to face you anymore. Many things aren’t my fault, yet for the sake of your so-called pride, to make you happy, I keep bowing my head and admitting guilt. But in the end, I find that no matter how weak I am, you’ll never care about my feelings. Why is wanting so little so hard?
Every ti I ask you a question, you always think of avoiding it. When we run into trouble and I want to clear things up, you choose to accuse without knowing the facts. Do you really trust ? Do you actually see as family, like I saw you as family the day you professed your love to , when you were genuinely kind to over the years, and I was nothing but a tool for you to use?"
"I never treated you as a tool I could use. I just wanted you to stay ho, safe, and not to run around recklessly. It’s not that I don’t trust you, but the mistakes you’ve made prevent from doing so. I’m scared, too. I’m afraid that the past will repeat itself, and I can’t bear that kind of hurt again. Do you now know what it feels like not to be trusted after hurting so many tis?"
"When I was with you, I told you all my truths wholeheartedly. I trusted you fully, and I never doubted you. But you never trusted once. You probably think I’m despicable, don’t you? Why should everything go your way? Even when sothing isn’t my fault, why should I have to bear the bla just to make you happy?
I’ve thought about it over and over again, never finding a proper conclusion. But finally, I figured it out; I do all of this simply because I love you. Yet in the end, this is what I get. Do you really know ? You always think I’m with you for Xiao Jing’s sake, for riches and glory. There are so many people in the world, so many rich people, who could offer their absolute trust. So why do I still choose you? Because I believed that one day, I could thaw your heart, which had grown cold because of ."
"Rember, you once said your heart was dead, incapable of love. But in the end, you still got together with . I don’t know if you’re with just to tornt or to use .
Why do you treat this way? Why won’t you give a stable life? Why do you keep distrusting , over and over again? It might seem like nothing to you, but for , it’s a fatal pain..."
"Zhihan, so things are in the past, let’s not talk about them anymore. Isn’t it nice just living your current life? Why keep bothering with those people from your past? You know they an you no good, so why do you do it? It’s as if you’re deliberately testing my patience.
My patience has its limits. I can’t always indulge you and love you without boundaries. I just want you to be well, just like you actually wanted to be with wholeheartedly, with no one else residing in your heart. But can you really do that? If you can do that, then as far as I’m concerned, I can give up everything."
"It’s too late for you to say these things to now. Since you’ve wronged without knowing the facts and haven’t even apologized, on what grounds should I forgive you now?
I really want to ask you, by what right do you wrong without cause, what do you really think of ? Why, when you make a mistake, when you wrong soone without a second thought, do you believe you’re entitled not to apologize? Just because you’re wealthy?"
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