An Ning bit her lip and did not retort.
Gu Xingchuan actually understood everything; he knew everything.
Despite her stubbornness, even if it was truly unreasonable and utterly absurd, she dared not give up. If she did, no one would help Gu Xingchuan again, and if she gave up, Gu Xingchuan really would only face death.
She lowered her gaze to hide the tears in her eyes.
"An Ning, rebellion is a capital cri, a heinous offense. No matter what you do, you cannot change this. No matter how you challenge the emperor, if he has even a shred of rationality, he cannot fulfill your wishes. Do you really want to force the emperor to beco an inept king?" Gu Xingchuan asked her.
"I know." An Ning shook her head, "I only know that anything can be resolved, except that once soone dies, they cannot be resurrected. Such miracles don’t happen in this world. I may die and cross over, Bai Mowan might die and be reborn, but if you die, I cannot cling to that unrealistic miracle, hoping you might live again."
Gu Xingchuan’s eyes shifted slightly.
He was even sowhat surprised at that mont.
Because he heard An Ning say that Bai Mowan was reborn.
But by the end, it didn’t seem that important.
When a person is about to die, everything can be let go, everything loses interest.
"Don’t be sad." Gu Xingchuan reached out.
As he moved, the sound of chains clinked on his body.
His fingers reached toward An Ning’s cheek.
Because at so point, her tears had already fallen.
Wet her beautiful face.
However, when his fingers truly approached, they suddenly stopped.
He then suddenly lowered his hand.
In the future, when she cries like this, he won’t be by her side anymore.
It’s better to let go sooner.
"Sacrificing myself to stabilize the court is worth it." Gu Xingchuan said softly again, "Besides..."
An Ning looked at Gu Xingchuan with eyes brimming with tears.
Looked at him with a smile always playing at the corners of his mouth.
After realizing his sentence, instead, his mood was bright.
"The emperor promised to set you free." Gu Xingchuan said, "You can stay in the Imperial Palace if you want, or leave if you don’t. He won’t stop you anymore."
"Even now, are you still thinking of ?" An Ning questioned him.
"A few days ago, I had a dream." Gu Xingchuan didn’t directly answer An Ning; he said, "I dreamt that I had actually died a long ti ago. After waking up, I’ve been thinking, maybe I really should die; fate has long been decided."
An Ning clenched her fists, always holding back.
"You promised before that if I died you’d forget , didn’t you?" Gu Xingchuan continued.
An Ning bit her lip.
Forgetting soone is never that easy.
Forgetting soone so good, how is it easy?
"You also promised that no matter what final punishnt the emperor delivers to , you won’t hate him." Gu Xingchuan looked at An Ning.
An Ning looked at Gu Xingchuan through tear-blurred eyes.
She did not promise.
This ti, she did not agree.
Because she feared she couldn’t do it.
"Actually, the emperor truly has his own constraints. Every country has its laws, every family its rules. I’ve committed a capital cri and only death awaits . Yet the emperor showed his greatest rcy by sparing the Gu Family’s nine clans, which is the most he could do for and for you." Gu Xingchuan explained.
"His limit is sparing your life." An Ning was firm.
"His power allows it, but his position doesn’t allow him to do so."
"Yes." An Ning nodded, "His choice will always be his position."
Gu Xingchuan looked at An Ning, trying to comfort her, "You need to understand, being in his position, he has his responsibilities. The emperor is not all-powerful, nor can he truly hide the sky with one hand. Although the emperor visited today, I requested he set you free; but if you truly love the emperor, you can choose to stay by his side, for he does genuinely love you."
An Ning shook her head.
Xiao Jinxing doesn’t understand love at all.
The sa with Bai Mowan, with her, and perhaps even with Feng Xiyun as well.
"As a rival in love, I see it very clearly." Gu Xingchuan affird.
"Even so, his greatest love is still his country and governance."
"That is his duty."
"I have been chosen over many tis, not once has he chosen ." An Ning said sowhat sardonically.
Everyone tells her Xiao Jinxing loves her.
For her, he lived in pain for these past five years, numb and indifferent.
For her, he left the three thousand beauties of the harem untouched, preserving his loyalty towards her.
But.
Why is it every ti, when faced with a choice, she is always the one abandoned.
Previously, for Bai Mowan, he repeatedly left her.
Later, with Gu Xingchuan’s betrayal, he abandoned her for his kingdom.
Now, for stable governance and keeping the people’s hearts, he again chooses to let her go.
Xiao Jinxing knows better than anyone.
Once he orders Gu Xingchuan’s death, there would be no possibility left between them.
Yet he still chose to preserve his rule and kill Gu Xingchuan, ending the precarious relationship between them.
Xiao Jinxing never once sacrificed anything for her.
How is she supposed to believe his love?
Is it selfish and despicable love?!
Gu Xingchuan suddenly beca silent.
As if everything indeed was as An Ning said.
The emperor never chose her once, never once sacrificed anything for her.
Yet, the emperor truly loves An Ning.
Is it fate playing tricks?
Or truly, destined without shared fate?
"This ti, even if I exchange my entire life for yours, choosing to stay in the palace to accompany him in ruling the world, managing the inner palaces for him, even preparing for him to favor others in the harem in prospects of a successor for the Daxuan Kingdom." An Ning looked at Gu Xingchuan and said very plainly, "Yet he still chooses his regi."
"Perhaps, the emperor doesn’t wish to wrong you in such a way." Gu Xingchuan speculated.
"Perhaps..." An Ning coldly chuckled, "Perhaps. But his love, I really can’t feel it. I truly can’t accept it."
Gu Xingchuan wanted to say sothing.
An Ning didn’t want to hear anymore.
She knew Gu Xingchuan’s kindness.
Even in his dying mont, he thought of how she would live in the future.
She said, "I don’t hate Xiao Jinxing."
Gu Xingchuan was taken aback.
The sudden words left him a little surprised.
Clearly, just monts ago, the grievances were deep.
"What you all say is right; standing in his position, he’s done all he could. He must bear the weight of governance and the nation, must consider officials and commoners, I understand his constraints." An Ning said, quietly speaking.
All that she did before was based on emotions, demanding of him, forcing him, making him go against the tides.
He failed to do so, not because of him; rather, it proves he is a wise ruler, not led by emotions.
It rely hurt the relationship between them.
But if there was no relationship between them. Then it’s not considered hurt, and let alone, hate!
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