Chenxing’s heart trembled again. Even though his words were consistent with his usual overbearing and assertive image, she wondered if his declaration of a child being rather troubleso was due to his dislike for children, or because he felt more gratitude than love for her? It wasn’t that she was being overly suspicious, but for so reason, she had a bitter taste in her heart.
Her aversion to pregnancy was due to the fact she still considered herself young and the idea of being an unmarried woman bearing a child was sothing she would never accept. She believes won who disregard their values might suffer in the future. Just as the saying goes, those to be pitied must have so fault of their own.
When she worked as a nurse in Liberia, she often heard stories of young girls who neglected to protect themselves, ended up pregnant before marriage, and got abandoned by the fathers. So had to undergo abortion alone, while others, who couldn’t bear to abort, failed to pressurize the n into marrying them with the child as leverage. They ended up facing a breakup, becoming single mothers, struggling to both work and raise a child. Bearing all hardships in silence and enduring societal judgnt was a path Chenxing was determined not to tread.
The future is unpredictable. Today’s passionate vows of love might dissolve into parting ways tomorrow. That’s the harsh reality of love in this world. Nobody knows who will end up with whom, who will part ways, who will stay together until old age, and who will avoid each other for the rest of their lives.
It was just like how she used to fancy Jianqing, secretly loved him, and her motivation for daily life was the hope of seeing him even from afar one day if he returned ho. But things changed in just over a year, and Jianqing was no longer her love. She had entangled herself with another man nad Gu Shaocheng.
It wasn’t that she didn’t believe in love; she didn’t believe in this world.
Even in a relationship, she aid to value herself by ensuring protection from harm.
But what about Gu Shaocheng? His view was the sa as hers, claiming pregnancy to be troubleso for whatever reason?
Although she felt a little sad, thinking about it, it was not unreasonable. That’s how this society worked. Innocence and romance have their places, but the cruel reality cannot be overlooked.
"Why is having a child troubleso? Don’t you like children?"
After pondering, she voiced her doubts. She didn’t like guessing and she was afraid she might guess wrong. As she usually inclines towards negative assumptions due to her lack of confidence.
If he chose not to answer, then she would have to guess again, at least after an attempt.
Just like how she didn’t know if he was treating her well out of gratitude for her father saving him or if he truly loved her. She asked him, and since he didn’t answer, she could only suppress her doubts and ponder on them.
"I don’t know if I like them or not, never interacted with them. If you want to give birth, do it. If you don’t want to, don’t. But you are not allowed to have a child with soone else," he repeated, a shadow crossing his eyes, "As for the trouble, I will deal with it."
Chenxing was even more confused by his statent.
But her heart was sowhat settled.
She wrapped her arms around his neck, resting her head lightly on his chest, "I certainly don’t want to give birth, I’m just nineteen, I’m still young. Can you arrange soone to buy so ergency contraception later? And we should always carry condoms in our pockets. Otherwise, with this beast of a man who seems to be in heat anyti, anywhere, I might be in trouble, right?"
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